[ Fat] + [ FUCK GUYS ]
Me and my mom went shopping for clothes for my cuzzins graduation, I figured out most clothes I like to wear are fucking to small for me now and its depressing I wish I was back to my size before I was pregnant but that aint going to happen, its sad I went from a 11 to a 19 (Ima fat ass) I cant stand this shit. I need to lose weight but I dont know how to and I wanna get a job and keep busy but that aint going to happen without a license, babysitter and all. So fuck it Im just going to sit at home and get fat as a fucking horse I cant stand it! I tryed so hard to lose that weight before I got pregnant and what happened I got pregnant and have fucking stretch marks they are nasty. Im getting sick, I got a ear ache, cold and plus my wisdom teeth are comming in the bottom, I think that is why I have a ear ache, but I aint sure.
Oh yeah...
FUCK GUYS.
They ain't nothing but bullshiters and I refuse to deal with that shit.
Me and John agrued the day after I went to his house, I know that aint going to work out be just like me and Tim's relationship and I don't need that and Shawn doesn't either.
Me: hey ho bag
Me: i was gone at 9 that why i didnt call
John: yep
Me: i got my lip thingy tho
Me: :-)
John: ok
Me: u feelin better?
John: nope
Me: damnit im bored i wanna go out
Me: grrr
John: sucks to be u
Me: why u being an ass for tonight?
John: why not
Me: ok well ill leave u alone i aint do shit to u and ur being an ass
John: im pissed offf
Me: sorry but ill talk to u whenever
John: I doubt it
Me: wtf?
John: im getting rid of aol
John: and getting rid of everything but work
Me: i am too doesnt mean we still cant talk but thats up to u
John: drama
Me: um okay
John: thats all it ammounts too
John: ima about to go away for a long time
Me: u really need to stop talking all that crazy shit and i dont know how u can say drama and all but thats fine whutever
John: no I am going to go away for a long time
Me: wtf u mean a long time?!
John: no one is gonna know where the hell I went
John: disappear from the face of the earth
Me: sorry u feel that way and everything else but i really dont wanna hear that shit
John: like I want to hear u put urself down all the time
John: yet you do it
Me: I dont do it all the time.. I mean damn I know I had a child and everything and my body hell but I dont care it was for a good cause
John: yea
Me: well do u want me to leave u alone cause i will if u ask me to i dont want to bother u
John: thats on you
Me: well on thing i aint putting up with u talking that kind of stuff.. i know that much
John: I dont honestly care
Me: ok whutever
Me: bye
Me: thats pretty sad when i came over to ur place and try and spend time or whutever but fuck it.. fuck guys
John: fk everyone
John: u didnt call...wasnt my fault
Me: I told u i was gone
Me: god damn SORRY
Me: I would have call if i had ur number on me but i didnt
John: where did u go
Me: walmart, kmart, goodys
Me: i come home to eat
John: yea
Me: but ill let u go
John: thats on u
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*Melissa
Me: yeh i know its on me cause its my choice to but u really seem like u want me to
John: I dont care what anyone does anymore
Me: STOP WITH THAT SHIT
John: no
John: thats the way I feel
Me: ive always felt that way but still why u acting like that towards me for cause i aint call u
Me: and u really think i didnt wanna call u
John: no...it has nothin to do with anything
Me: that didnt make no sense
John: what
Me: nevermind ill just leave u alone
John: WHATEVER! do what you want to do
Me: i plan to do what i wanna do.
John: of course what female doesnt
Me: but i mean damn when i imed u, u could have been im pissed and dont feel like talk
Me: talking*
Me: males do the same shit
Me: it aint just females
John: well im not males
Me: well then dont compare me to other females
John: right
Me: okay whutever sorry I ever talked to u
Me: bye
Me: i have better things to do then worry about a guy..
John: LOL ok whatever
Me: i aint going to lie to u, i did like u til just now after u judged me like all the other females and all
John: ok
John: well im to emotionally fucked up to like anyone
John: or trust anyone for that matter
Me: then why was u flirting with me and all then!?
Me: or did u just want company?
John: I dont know honestly what the hell it is I want out of anything
Me: ummm.......
Me: u dont know what u want to make ur life out to be?!
John: I dont know anything anymore
Me: yes u do
John: no...really
Me: u dont wanna get married, live in a house, and all that?
John: no
Me: well ima let u go and go watch boogyman
Me: so i guess ill see u around or something i dont know i dont wanna call u cause i aint trying to get bitched at
John: hrmm ok
Me: and honestly i really dont know why u can act so different when im with u then u do when im with breonna..
Me: well nevermind i do too i cant say anything
John: cause she freaks me out
Me: why she freak u out for?
Me: her driving?
Me: ok
John: no she just does
Me: and i dont freak u out cause me and her are just alike
John: no ur not
Me: in ways i am
John: not really
Me: how aint i?
Me: she is way more mature then i am
Me: i know that
John: yea right
Me: in ways she is i dont know
Me: .... why are u pissed anyways if u dont mind me asking?
John: cause I can be
Me: god thats rude
John: oh well
Me: are u pissed at me?
John: no
Me: then why u being an ass for when i aint do nething and dont say cause i can be
John: DAMNT!!!!!!!!
Me: im just asking
Me: silence....
John: is golden
Me: no its boring
John: I like it
Me: I dont i cant stand it
John: im sorry
Me: but i guess thats a hint for me to shut up right?
John: take it as you will
Me: either u can stop with the rude shit or ill just go some where else cause i cant stand when people are rude
Me: u aint drunk are u?!
John: nope I need to be
Me: John just answer this.. do u wanna talk to me or not? cause its totally up to u
John: no its up to you
Me: how is it up to me when i dont know how u feel about me or nething cause u never told me
Me and if u dont want to be in my "DRAMA" then tell me even if im not going to get u into drama.... cause i dont talk to neone but u brit and breonna
John: that brit girl freaks me out too
Me: she a WHORE
Me: and rude as hell
John: yea
Me: i dont like her but i couldnt say nething cause thats breonnas friend
John: ok
Me: sooo are u going to tell me if u like me or what not?
John: im to messed up to like anyone
Me: u talk about me putting myself down and what are u doing?
John: BECAUSE IT IS THE TRUTH! I have to many issues to deal with
Me: issues as in?
John: as in everything
Me: thats doesnt tell me anything
John: maybe it isnt for u to know
Me: as much as u have helped me and got me over dude and everything else u know what ur talking about u dont have no issues as what ive seen
John: because I hide it
Me: i really dont know what u are trying to get at?!
John: i hide my issues
Me: will what is the shit that Tim told me is it true about the demons or whutever? It doesnt bother me if it is i just wanna know the truth but u aint got to tell me anything u dont wanna tell
John: no god damnt
John: I told u that before
John: god damn...ya know...just fk off
Me: ok whutever thats all i wanted to hear... BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
John: thats obviously what you were pushing for
Me: no i wasnt
Me: but i really guess tim was fucking right about that too huh?!
Me: but i aint going to get upset over this shit and bring back bad memories
John: tim was right about what
John: its obvious you really want to piss me the fuck off tonight
Me: me pushing guys away like i did to him
Me: no i wasnt..
Me: u can think what u wanna think thats on u not on me
John: yea ok
Me: i dont have anything to say or do to piss u off u aint done nething to me
John: no u keep pushin me
Me: well ill leave u alone
John: do whatever
Me: u aint got to be an ass about it
Me: and i really dont know how i pushed u to get more pissed?!
Me: but ill drop it.. fuck it fuck everyone
Me: but all i got to say is open as i am with u and all is rare for me to be with a guy most of the time im shy and everything but i aint with u.. but oh well it doesnt matter
Me: one more thing if i pissed u off more then Im sorry I really am.
Me: ur better off without me to fuck ur life up so ill go... nice talking to u and hang out with u.. have fun
John: ok ok damn