On Being a Loser
Ok, so here's the deal. I am again stuck inside on a weekend night with nothing to do. The only good thing that has come out of my lack of a life is the amount of stuff I have read for my research project. I actually found some good materials in a book that my prof gave me. I think that the book is what gave him the idea for the project in the first place. Doing homework on a saturday night is the epitome of being a loser. Even my roommate went out. She is paying a $25 cover to go to a party at the Omni-Orringtion, a ritzy, expensive hotel nearby. I refuse to pay that much to get into any party, let alone one where I know no one and do not speak a second language (apparently there are a lot of international students there, many from latin america.) So here I sit bored again. I was so bored last night that I rearranged my room just for fun. I like it better. I don't get a crick in my neck when I watch TV in bed, like I did before. I guess that it is just another excuse to watch more TV, even though that exactly what I am not supposed to be doing now that I have this research project. The whole point of taking it on was so that I would have less time to rot my brain in front of the TV. It isn't even semi-intellectual TV, like Law and Order is. I have been watching movies like Addams Family, Casper, and Sleepless in Seatle all day. They are real brain-busters, lemme just tell you. I did get my ass up and moving today, though. I blew up my yoga ball and did some moves. Unfortunately now my back hurts like hell and probablly won't be able to move tomorrow, which will mean yet another day without leaving this hell hole.
Well, on another note, my aunt had her 60th birthday party tonight. Maybe that is why I am more bummed tonight than before. My whole family is together at home and I am stuck here, missing the fun of being together. (Yes, I know that it is weird how close I am with my family, but I can't help it. They are great.) My cousin worked so hard on this party. I wish that I could have helped her, even though I did, in a way. I was her alibi for the last 2 days so that her mother wouldn't call her, and maybe find out what she was up to. She has "been in Chicago" since Thursday. The only problem is that I wish that she really were here. Being so close to a city that is so full of life sucks when you have no one to share it with. My fascination with the city is not something that most of my school pals share. THey have been here for so long that the newness has worn off. Plus, they are only interested in the parts of the city that serve beer. That is so not up my alley. I hate drinking, which makes it hard to socialize with the people, not to mention again that they all have wives that are in the picture. (NOT that I want to get with any of the guys. It just makes it hard when everyone is paired up and my better half is still in Ohio.) Ho hum. Woe is me. Any one feel sorry for my yet? If you do, shame on you because all I am really doing is whining to a computer screen. Why a computer screen, you ask? Its really simple. It is the only thing here that I can "talk" to that wouldn't make me want to check myself into the mental hospital.
On a different note, I have come to discover that animals are really overpriced in this city. Even mutt dogs cost a couple of hundred dollars apiece.(at least the ones that are in the paper.) I can understand a purebred dog being that much money, but a mutt? C'mon! That is rediculous! I sincerely hope that the local animal shelter is not that costly. I really want to get an animal when I move out of the dorms. I don't think that Abbey will be allowed to leave my parents house, even though they detest her behavior sometimes, ok, all the time. She is starting to teach Lightning bad habits, now. I have caught him taking a nap on the kitchen table! Abbey doesn't do that, but I think that he thinks that she can be on the counters, so why can't he be on the table? HE also begs so loudly now. He doesn't let her be the big mouth anymore. They are equally loud when food is on the table or being prepared in the kitchen. My mother gives me daily updates on her latest adventures and what she is teaching "her innocent cat" Lemme just tell her that her cat isn't all that innocent. He eats the frickin' house plants! He almost ate her whole spider plant! She had to lock it in the front study so that he couldn't get to it and make himself sick!! Now I know that Abbey didn't teach him that. As for Buddy, my poor puppy is getting so old. His behavior is getting worse, too. He is so lost. He walks into doors, and can't hear you when you call him. He is like a walking space cadet. I think that he is going to have to get put down very soon because he could really hurt himself now. He doesn't even snap at us anymore when we pet his belly, which was his sorest spot for years!
OK! I have to stop thinking about what I am missing at home! I have to start thinking about what I need to do here so that I pass all of my classes this quarter! I have an assignment due in Matrix Methods of structural analysis on Tuesday and am sure that I will need to talk to my professor about it on monday. Of course in order to be able to ask questions about it, I have to have at least looked at it and attempted to solve the incredibly complex problems that he gave us. I think that I will start them now. I might even get lucky. The last time that I decided to "just start" my homework for that class I finished it that night, with no problems. Oh, to be that lucky! I would really love it if that happened. It would mean that I am pretty well prepared for my midterm which is in less than 2 weeks now. I have two midterms scheduled so far: one the day before my birthday and one the day after! How is that for a happy day! I get to spend my birthday, not only alone, but studying for a final that will probablly be the hardest test I have ever taken. I will spend the whole day trying to make myself think like an old, male airhead so that I might have some insight as to what my prof is thinking! Now that is pretty damn pathetic, if you ask me!
Ok, I am really ending this pathetically depressing entry. Feel free to comment, even if it is to tell me to get a bloody life! (Especially if it is to tell me to get a bloody life! Maybe I will listen!!! Yeah, right!)
Well, on another note, my aunt had her 60th birthday party tonight. Maybe that is why I am more bummed tonight than before. My whole family is together at home and I am stuck here, missing the fun of being together. (Yes, I know that it is weird how close I am with my family, but I can't help it. They are great.) My cousin worked so hard on this party. I wish that I could have helped her, even though I did, in a way. I was her alibi for the last 2 days so that her mother wouldn't call her, and maybe find out what she was up to. She has "been in Chicago" since Thursday. The only problem is that I wish that she really were here. Being so close to a city that is so full of life sucks when you have no one to share it with. My fascination with the city is not something that most of my school pals share. THey have been here for so long that the newness has worn off. Plus, they are only interested in the parts of the city that serve beer. That is so not up my alley. I hate drinking, which makes it hard to socialize with the people, not to mention again that they all have wives that are in the picture. (NOT that I want to get with any of the guys. It just makes it hard when everyone is paired up and my better half is still in Ohio.) Ho hum. Woe is me. Any one feel sorry for my yet? If you do, shame on you because all I am really doing is whining to a computer screen. Why a computer screen, you ask? Its really simple. It is the only thing here that I can "talk" to that wouldn't make me want to check myself into the mental hospital.
On a different note, I have come to discover that animals are really overpriced in this city. Even mutt dogs cost a couple of hundred dollars apiece.(at least the ones that are in the paper.) I can understand a purebred dog being that much money, but a mutt? C'mon! That is rediculous! I sincerely hope that the local animal shelter is not that costly. I really want to get an animal when I move out of the dorms. I don't think that Abbey will be allowed to leave my parents house, even though they detest her behavior sometimes, ok, all the time. She is starting to teach Lightning bad habits, now. I have caught him taking a nap on the kitchen table! Abbey doesn't do that, but I think that he thinks that she can be on the counters, so why can't he be on the table? HE also begs so loudly now. He doesn't let her be the big mouth anymore. They are equally loud when food is on the table or being prepared in the kitchen. My mother gives me daily updates on her latest adventures and what she is teaching "her innocent cat" Lemme just tell her that her cat isn't all that innocent. He eats the frickin' house plants! He almost ate her whole spider plant! She had to lock it in the front study so that he couldn't get to it and make himself sick!! Now I know that Abbey didn't teach him that. As for Buddy, my poor puppy is getting so old. His behavior is getting worse, too. He is so lost. He walks into doors, and can't hear you when you call him. He is like a walking space cadet. I think that he is going to have to get put down very soon because he could really hurt himself now. He doesn't even snap at us anymore when we pet his belly, which was his sorest spot for years!
OK! I have to stop thinking about what I am missing at home! I have to start thinking about what I need to do here so that I pass all of my classes this quarter! I have an assignment due in Matrix Methods of structural analysis on Tuesday and am sure that I will need to talk to my professor about it on monday. Of course in order to be able to ask questions about it, I have to have at least looked at it and attempted to solve the incredibly complex problems that he gave us. I think that I will start them now. I might even get lucky. The last time that I decided to "just start" my homework for that class I finished it that night, with no problems. Oh, to be that lucky! I would really love it if that happened. It would mean that I am pretty well prepared for my midterm which is in less than 2 weeks now. I have two midterms scheduled so far: one the day before my birthday and one the day after! How is that for a happy day! I get to spend my birthday, not only alone, but studying for a final that will probablly be the hardest test I have ever taken. I will spend the whole day trying to make myself think like an old, male airhead so that I might have some insight as to what my prof is thinking! Now that is pretty damn pathetic, if you ask me!
Ok, I am really ending this pathetically depressing entry. Feel free to comment, even if it is to tell me to get a bloody life! (Especially if it is to tell me to get a bloody life! Maybe I will listen!!! Yeah, right!)