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[irweasil]

I want so bad to feel safe again... 
I can't sleep... it's so hard
I don't wanna get out of bed theres no point
running away is too easy I'm so lost
and misguided
my future from this point looks bleak
boring and redundant
I want an exciting career 
maybe one with animals
or I could join the peace corps 
I know they would pay for my college

.... or I could get married... then the governmant give you a grant through college....but that scares me ... kinda
love him to death but am I ready?