Fuck my pains

[irweasil]

I might as well have just killed myself by the way it seems.
I have changed but it was enivitable..
I don't deserve friends i treat them like crap...
spontenuity doesn't seem to exist to me anymore
everyday is the same
a call here and there but my sickness seems to have overwhelmed me
I don't want to do anything anymore
my head aches at the thought of going outside
running is completely out of the question
I'm sorry to everyone

i just WANT it to stop

the pain has made me bitchy and forgetful
its unbearable
but yet I cringe at the thought of metioning it to my parents
the machine makes me cry