too much to contain
My containment unit is full...time to empty. I see this epherial triangle, but it's actually a square. one of the points has been taken way, so now I see an epherial triangle, no more squares, no extra lines. In a square you have space to move around; in a triangle, you just keep bumping sides. Triangles go in one direction or another, but with squares you can cross from point to point. It doesn't really matter though, because it's a triangle now.
Like tuning a guitar: you get the perfect tone from each string but one, and when you finally get that right tone, you get on stage and play a most glorious song, and on the last note....that string breaks. it's called the second string; i am broken. I will be the second string no more. I tried and tried, but to no avail, so it is done. Thanks to all who waited patiently to hear the song, sorry for the last cord sounding so fucked up, yada yada yada..... Game over.
I have been toying with nothingness. I've acheived nothingness. I found out there is no such thing as nothingness. Nothingness: the lack of substance; the absence of substance. Substance: something that is tangible. Living in nothingness showed me that even though there was nothing, I still felt pain and sadness, pardon, still do. Therefore, nothingness is obselete for there is still emotion. Now that I have covered that theory and found it lacking(nothingness) I can move on with more pain and sadness.
Will the torture ever end!!! Am I to live my life watching everyone around me have love for someone, as strange as situations may be? Love will not leave me, no matter how hard I try, but continues to be a force to be reckoned with, one that I can't take very much longer. I have decided to take a semi-vow of silence; only talking when it is necessary. Talking solves none of my problems and often makes them worse. So from now on, if you want my input or want to know what I'm feeling or what is going on in my head, you'll have to read about it and try to decifer it for yourself.
I don't understand all this fighting over one mans heart. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that it's not worth fighting for, but do you know why you're fighting? The real reason? All I can say is that a lot of the future is based on the decision of one man's crazy(in a good way) soul. Good luck to the victor(s)! I will be watching from my usual seat in
box 5.
In pain I leave you, in understanding I welcome you, in love I push you away. I love you all.
IrvingQ
Like tuning a guitar: you get the perfect tone from each string but one, and when you finally get that right tone, you get on stage and play a most glorious song, and on the last note....that string breaks. it's called the second string; i am broken. I will be the second string no more. I tried and tried, but to no avail, so it is done. Thanks to all who waited patiently to hear the song, sorry for the last cord sounding so fucked up, yada yada yada..... Game over.
I have been toying with nothingness. I've acheived nothingness. I found out there is no such thing as nothingness. Nothingness: the lack of substance; the absence of substance. Substance: something that is tangible. Living in nothingness showed me that even though there was nothing, I still felt pain and sadness, pardon, still do. Therefore, nothingness is obselete for there is still emotion. Now that I have covered that theory and found it lacking(nothingness) I can move on with more pain and sadness.
Will the torture ever end!!! Am I to live my life watching everyone around me have love for someone, as strange as situations may be? Love will not leave me, no matter how hard I try, but continues to be a force to be reckoned with, one that I can't take very much longer. I have decided to take a semi-vow of silence; only talking when it is necessary. Talking solves none of my problems and often makes them worse. So from now on, if you want my input or want to know what I'm feeling or what is going on in my head, you'll have to read about it and try to decifer it for yourself.
I don't understand all this fighting over one mans heart. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that it's not worth fighting for, but do you know why you're fighting? The real reason? All I can say is that a lot of the future is based on the decision of one man's crazy(in a good way) soul. Good luck to the victor(s)! I will be watching from my usual seat in
box 5.
In pain I leave you, in understanding I welcome you, in love I push you away. I love you all.
IrvingQ