EMERGENCY ROOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[irun4fun329]

friday - didnt exactly go as planned. we were planning to go to the dance and all that, but ended up going to the emergency room instead....i had a little mishap with the soup can....(shutup) and had to get stiches...anyways its a much longer story than that and was actually really upsetting because my mom was out of town, like she always is...normally its fine and whatev but when u have to go to the ER and actually dont even know if you really need to, you need your mom there...or at least a legal guardian...not only for legal issues but also just to be a good parent...to be there when ur kid needs you. i know i cant really be mad at her since this couldve happened at a time when she happened to be away even if she hardly ever left...but the thing is shes gone a lot. normally i dont care. its nice to have freedom. i have way more freedom than a lot of people i know and its really nice. but when i really did need her she wasnt there. i dont really even know if i have a right to be upset with her, which confuses me even more. all i know is that i had to go to the hospital, i wanted her there, i needed my mom, my only goddam legal fucking guardian, and she wasnt there. she was with her boyfriend and his kids. again.

dont get me wrong, i do love my mom and this whole thing is not about this one incident. its many many things that have built up over time. shes never around. even when she is, shes too preoccupied with her boyfriend or school or some other shit besides me.

anyways... my mom may not have been there for me, but my friends were. im so glad all of you were there and thanks so much for being there for me when i needed you the most!! i dont know what i would do without you guys!!! leah, liz, sarah, and her mom all took me to the ER. it was a party. it was nice to realize just how many people i can go to if i need anything.

wow i didnt mean to make this so long....ill stop now...but the weekend with leah was a fun adventure...and i cant wait for next weekend!!!