the money blues . . .
i hate having to stress over money. sometimes i wish i was one of those spoiled brats who get everything from there daddys and have a sticker on my car saying "im daddy's princess". i had a great time in bishop but of course i have to come back to reality. my car has been over heating and i took it to the shop this morning and of course its the most expensive thing, the water pump is leaking. and they cant fix it until next week but i need it on monday. i hate this! around 4 this morning i wake up and drew is looking at me and he stroked my head and said "im sorry im so broke all the time." i hate having to hear that, kacey went off on him, jokingly, about how he isnt a good provider when we went to mammoth and didnt give me money. i know that torn him apart. then this and he sees how upset i am and i can tell he is dying inside. i know it wont always be like this but between shawn and this we are just ready to die. and all this before christmas, thank god i got his gift a few weeks ago. and i was going to go to my moms today and we cant do that, drews family is down his back and we are sick of it. we have to turn in our quarters just to pay our phone bill. i mean i have money but i have to pay $1300 for classes and $475 for housing this week and i already paid a $300 credit card bill that had gifts on it. GOD, when can we get a break for once?