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hello livejournal,
here's a secret i can't tell facebook: sometimes I wish i didn't feel.
the weight of my life and my hurt and my human-ness. Sometimes i wish that guy could just be a one-night stand. but this time it isn't for me, and i'm left with the Feeling, rotting in my heart. knowing that i'm now vulnerable and feeling like that's a bad thing.
So for that reason, i sometimes hate who i've become...who i've cried into...just because i couldn't stand by dirty old principles. just because i couldn't believe in love. Just because i can't believe that we could become something, because i'm too cynical to believe he might like me back.
I apologize, but fuck. Just fuck.
here's a secret i can't tell facebook: sometimes I wish i didn't feel.
the weight of my life and my hurt and my human-ness. Sometimes i wish that guy could just be a one-night stand. but this time it isn't for me, and i'm left with the Feeling, rotting in my heart. knowing that i'm now vulnerable and feeling like that's a bad thing.
So for that reason, i sometimes hate who i've become...who i've cried into...just because i couldn't stand by dirty old principles. just because i couldn't believe in love. Just because i can't believe that we could become something, because i'm too cynical to believe he might like me back.
I apologize, but fuck. Just fuck.