...stepping away from what gives me too much pain
in my perfect world...
the people i love most would be there constantly.
i would not have to deal with liars or unrealistic associates.
and the 'what if' would not exist.
patience, not longing, would be what we consumed our time wondering about.
now days its as if people have completely lost the truth behind the matter.
anything that is different is drama.
and honesty some how gets transformed into some unwanted and overly thought out argument.
people would let what is secretly felt, released.
and reality was what led our lives, instead of censoring the truth to prevent heartache.
i would let go of all the restrictions other people have placed on me.
i would not care about things that are impossible.
and i would remind you of how hypocritical you are.
and you, you would get a reality check.
people would not assume they know me.
and people would let go of whatever classification they have placed upon me.
i could get close to whoever i wanted.
nothing that is not anything would be seen as exactly that.
and fear would be a positive emotion.
and love would be an international understanding.
in my perfect world i would find beauty in all the ugly.
and i would open up to all of you. and feel safe.
and you would just accept how i felt as my opinion and nothing more.
and people would change what is hurting them.
they would change and want change for themselves.
because watching you throw your life away is just too hard.
but it is not and never will be what i want.
yet at the same time i am learning to careless about people who just make my life messier than it needs to be.
the people i love most would be there constantly.
i would not have to deal with liars or unrealistic associates.
and the 'what if' would not exist.
patience, not longing, would be what we consumed our time wondering about.
now days its as if people have completely lost the truth behind the matter.
anything that is different is drama.
and honesty some how gets transformed into some unwanted and overly thought out argument.
people would let what is secretly felt, released.
and reality was what led our lives, instead of censoring the truth to prevent heartache.
i would let go of all the restrictions other people have placed on me.
i would not care about things that are impossible.
and i would remind you of how hypocritical you are.
and you, you would get a reality check.
people would not assume they know me.
and people would let go of whatever classification they have placed upon me.
i could get close to whoever i wanted.
nothing that is not anything would be seen as exactly that.
and fear would be a positive emotion.
and love would be an international understanding.
in my perfect world i would find beauty in all the ugly.
and i would open up to all of you. and feel safe.
and you would just accept how i felt as my opinion and nothing more.
and people would change what is hurting them.
they would change and want change for themselves.
because watching you throw your life away is just too hard.
but it is not and never will be what i want.
yet at the same time i am learning to careless about people who just make my life messier than it needs to be.