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My back hurts... and I'm tired... and I'm bored... and I don't know what I have that I can do....
Mac still hasn't said anything back, so I'll just assume he's going to stay with Christa.... and at first I just had to cry because I felt like I screwed up and I lost and ladeeda.... but then I talked it over... to myself... and I'm over it now... heh... maybe I'll look for him next year.... maybe he'll be a more mature sophmore than he is now...
and I desperatly have been wanting a boyfriend... but then I realized... no I don't... I'm just bored and want affection... I don't want a -boyfriend- though =/....
Daniel came on last night and before I could even talk myself into IMing him he was gone... I guess I lost a friend there...
but then again... I was thinking.... since my dad wants to take me to Orlando like, next time I come down... I think I'll call Daniel and talk to him about a meet.... but of course it would cost him money and he could be working and I probably shouldn't see him again because aparently he's an ass like every other guy in the world....
and then there's Andy... I still have to send that letter and get it over with.... there's practically a zero-to 0.5 chance that it's his address, or at least, his dad's address.... and then I have to depend on th mail to -get- it there, and THEN I have the worry of how I addressed the evvelope.... I put his address on there as it was on the phonebook site... but since it's in the US will the send it to some place that almost has that address or something...
but I wanna send it and get it over with so then I can leave the matter alone and never worry about it again, never think and consider these possiblities that are so outrageous and out of reach that it only hurts to come back to reality...
..... ew..... i just sneezed all over myself
well anyway, I'm going to stop sulking, brush my teeth and striaghten my hair.... someone call me sometime or just wait till I get online or something....
yeah...
Mac still hasn't said anything back, so I'll just assume he's going to stay with Christa.... and at first I just had to cry because I felt like I screwed up and I lost and ladeeda.... but then I talked it over... to myself... and I'm over it now... heh... maybe I'll look for him next year.... maybe he'll be a more mature sophmore than he is now...
and I desperatly have been wanting a boyfriend... but then I realized... no I don't... I'm just bored and want affection... I don't want a -boyfriend- though =/....
Daniel came on last night and before I could even talk myself into IMing him he was gone... I guess I lost a friend there...
but then again... I was thinking.... since my dad wants to take me to Orlando like, next time I come down... I think I'll call Daniel and talk to him about a meet.... but of course it would cost him money and he could be working and I probably shouldn't see him again because aparently he's an ass like every other guy in the world....
and then there's Andy... I still have to send that letter and get it over with.... there's practically a zero-to 0.5 chance that it's his address, or at least, his dad's address.... and then I have to depend on th mail to -get- it there, and THEN I have the worry of how I addressed the evvelope.... I put his address on there as it was on the phonebook site... but since it's in the US will the send it to some place that almost has that address or something...
but I wanna send it and get it over with so then I can leave the matter alone and never worry about it again, never think and consider these possiblities that are so outrageous and out of reach that it only hurts to come back to reality...
..... ew..... i just sneezed all over myself
well anyway, I'm going to stop sulking, brush my teeth and striaghten my hair.... someone call me sometime or just wait till I get online or something....
yeah...