I can't figure out why i can't smile, unless i really need to...
I really don't know whats wrong w/ me. I feel SOOO FUCKING OUT OF PLACE. Like its so fucking annoying. I can't take it. I sit in class and wish that i was sitting in a classroom in Long Beach High School. I don't understand why i have a tendency to look at someone and then fit them as someone i know in LBHS. I have been extremely anti-social and quiet. And for everyone that knows me IM SOOO NOT LIKE THAT. I get frustrated in class easily. I just hate it here soooo much. Its like Staten island has its own little bubble and im standing outside that bubble. The only thing i laughed at today was some kid behind me who is like a comedy show. Like 2 strangers asked me today if i was ok, i then had to put on a big smile and sayy "yeaaa im fine, im just soo tired". I walked around the track by myself today in gym class and didn't say a word to the girls i usually hang out with in gym. I feel like such an outsider i dont even know what to do, i dont think there really is anything i could actually do :\ But whatever...im home early from school b/c i can leave whenever i want so i decided to leave after 8th. I hate 9th pd. Its weird how when i was just getting content and was making all new friends this summer, I have to leave.It seems like its the story of my life. its such a horrible feeling. But whatever i guess...