Oh boy...
So, I know I've been out of the loop on this LJ. I haven't checked it in so long due to many factors, but mainly being SW eating all of my online time for good measure. I love it so very much. It's my opportunity to write without fearing a grade, to express without having to show anything on my face, to talk without having to talk bullshit or business (which often tends to be both simultaneously). And for those of you who actually know this journal (most likely just Bella and Mel), I appreciate your friendship through this so very much. It gives me a reason to bother with a lot of things and a reason to smile when I'm currently living in a sea of frowns.
I'll go ahead and try to post what has made me happy recently...
-Triple decker peanut-butter, honey, and fluff sandwiches and their recent rediscovery
-Shaving the beard away and not feeling nearly as much pain as usual
-Jimmy Cliff's "Many Rivers to Cross"
-Chad Vader
-Fresh strings on a guitar
-The relief of being done with one assignment (only one)
-Doctor Who
Things that have made me feel even worse than I've ever felt...
-Quitting Music Directorship at WSOE and hurting a lot of feelings for doing so
-Giving my teachers guilt trips when it's my own fault for not doing as well as I should
-My family thinks I'm happy, and I could give two shits about what they think
-Lack of sleep and eating because of depression
-My ability to push away I love/like just to miss them
-My roommate effectively moving into the other bedroom of the apartment, providing no reason, and then offering no sign of friendship since
-My lack of ability on guitar
I'll post in much more dramatic tones later, and that's the entry you'll more than likely want to miss unless you really want to sympathize for me though I don't deserve it.
I'll go ahead and try to post what has made me happy recently...
-Triple decker peanut-butter, honey, and fluff sandwiches and their recent rediscovery
-Shaving the beard away and not feeling nearly as much pain as usual
-Jimmy Cliff's "Many Rivers to Cross"
-Chad Vader
-Fresh strings on a guitar
-The relief of being done with one assignment (only one)
-Doctor Who
Things that have made me feel even worse than I've ever felt...
-Quitting Music Directorship at WSOE and hurting a lot of feelings for doing so
-Giving my teachers guilt trips when it's my own fault for not doing as well as I should
-My family thinks I'm happy, and I could give two shits about what they think
-Lack of sleep and eating because of depression
-My ability to push away I love/like just to miss them
-My roommate effectively moving into the other bedroom of the apartment, providing no reason, and then offering no sign of friendship since
-My lack of ability on guitar
I'll post in much more dramatic tones later, and that's the entry you'll more than likely want to miss unless you really want to sympathize for me though I don't deserve it.