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hmm... i feel somewhat better. Cuz i just got new sweaters. and they made me happy. gee, thats a shitty reason to be happy, but HAY, if it works......
I hope my stepmom isnt with my dad tommorow when he comes to see me. i want to talk to him alone. i want to ask him about living with him. i dont want katie there. i hate it when she's there.
can't wait till friday!!!! i had sooo much fun with meaghan this weekend. i miss that. shes my best friend. shes irreplacable. shes family.
we laugh our heads off and go on "Walks" & talk and shtuff. about anything. and there is no judgement. i seriously cant imagine us ever getting into an fight. we luv eachother way too much.
it makes me sad that i dont fit in with her other friends. well, its not that i dont fit in, i just have never hung out with them. they have their own group, and i respect that. i kno im not a HardXcore partyer. i dont drink. i dont need to drink. I already act like it half the time.
Karson and his girlfriend say "i love you" now. it doesnt make me upset, but its weird. i dunno how to explain it. i saw them kiss one day and it was like WHOA. my stomach flip flops. i dont feel for him anymore so why is it so weird?
And ANDREW still makes me want to throw up. Every time i see him i want to cry my head off. i hate that.
Sometimes I wish love would go Fuck Itself.
I hope my stepmom isnt with my dad tommorow when he comes to see me. i want to talk to him alone. i want to ask him about living with him. i dont want katie there. i hate it when she's there.
can't wait till friday!!!! i had sooo much fun with meaghan this weekend. i miss that. shes my best friend. shes irreplacable. shes family.
we laugh our heads off and go on "Walks" & talk and shtuff. about anything. and there is no judgement. i seriously cant imagine us ever getting into an fight. we luv eachother way too much.
it makes me sad that i dont fit in with her other friends. well, its not that i dont fit in, i just have never hung out with them. they have their own group, and i respect that. i kno im not a HardXcore partyer. i dont drink. i dont need to drink. I already act like it half the time.
Karson and his girlfriend say "i love you" now. it doesnt make me upset, but its weird. i dunno how to explain it. i saw them kiss one day and it was like WHOA. my stomach flip flops. i dont feel for him anymore so why is it so weird?
And ANDREW still makes me want to throw up. Every time i see him i want to cry my head off. i hate that.
Sometimes I wish love would go Fuck Itself.