shake us out of the heavy deep sleep... do it now!

[ironwine]

So i officially quit my job yesterday. I handed in my poorly-worded letter of resignation and washed my hands of the whole thing. I feel calm but also hate being in limbo... don't know what to do with myself now. I've been looking for other jobs for the last couple of days but my heart hasn't been in it. I just want to be a secretary... someone who can sit there and type boring letters and wear little business outfits and perhaps engage in a little "S n'M" with my boss.... bah!

I'm at Elliott's now, I've slept on his sofa bed for the last two nights straight. Haven't wanted to sleep in my room for some reason... well several reasons, just being in my house alone at the moment doesn't do well for my psyche.

I'm going in to work on Friday to hand in my uniform and my key. It will give them (and me) some sort of finality to the whole situation. I hated working there towards the end, even though there are cool people there but ... pssh.. who sticks around at a dead end sales job for that?? everyone kept telling me how much they'll miss my "sense of irony and cynicism" and how much i "light up the store". haha.

anyway.... i just rolled the fattest joint and I'm going to go smoke it.

life is weird. and i have so much love to give.