I dont know......
Its been quite a while since I have *really* posted. I think that I am having trouble with words. As anyone who has a handle on depression would say, "Hello!, you are depressed!" I don't know if thats really whats going on or not. I feel lost, alienated, alone. I don't know exactly. In the past few days school, work, family, all have been a bit overbearing. I really dont want to sound like I am whining. But hey, if I am I am okay with that for right now. I guess that its all the little things that are making everything worse right now. Its the stupid little things that mean a lot to me,not in any order. The Pack being 1-5. Wanderlust still being sick. Not spending as much time with the family as I would like, espicially H. I haven't even felt real close to my Gods recently. I have thought long and hard about all of this over the weekend. I know what I have to do. I have to let the stupid little stuff go. I will spend, not that I haven't been already, as mush time with H and the boys that I can. I will meditate more. I will start working out more. Hopefully I will be able to fight some more in SCA and Amtgard too. Its a release. Anyway, thank you all for listening. I am sure that I sound all ranty, but what the Hel. I am sure that we all get like this from time to time. Its what we do now that secures our future. I have to keep on remembering this.