i-should-be-asleep ramblings

[ironichris]

i'm awake right now, even though i should be sleeping so i can get up and clean my appartment and run some errands before Bruce gets here tomorrow (today?) at noon-ish. it's the job, it's got my rhythum all outta whack, and more tired than i've ever been. i swear i feel like it's going to kill me; almost everyday this week i've felt like i was going to collapse as soon as i got on turf. how i managed to make it for five hours, and whatsmore make quota is beyond me. i'd quit but 1) the only other job lead i've had in two months was a fly-by-night ad agency who wanted me to come in for a nine-hour interview on one day's notice, 2) this job is also providing me with the closest thing to a social life i've had since leaving greensboro. there might also be a point 3) but i don't think i want to say anything about that one right now.

i still hope the CCS job rematerializes in september, that would be great. bwah.