Re: Aaaand the title is amazingly gay.project_sheepMay 22 2003, 17:51:12 UTC
Listen, I appreciate this life story you wrote here about me. Really, I do. But here's the deal. You say I haven't given you advice? Last time I tried to talk to you about it, I tried to come at it in another fashion, because anytime I confront you, you put on your fucking blinders and get the mentality that the person you are talking to is a fucking 5 year old. You know, as much as you think my opinions are just me being a "dick" or whatever, you ever think I'm saying these things for other reasons? Maybe it never occured to you that the person in question LIVES with me and maybe, just maybe, I TALK TO HIM?! So, instead of maybe thinking, "Oh, damn, the only reason he's telling me this is because he's out to get me." maybe realize if I think there is something wrong, maybe something is wrong. But ya know what? Too late. I'm tired of you always asking for what I think and then talking to me like I'm a fucking child and I possibly have NO idea what I'm talking about because it's all allegations, "seems to be's" and accustations. Well, looks like my "allegations" weren't so far off, were they? But hey, what do I know, I'm just a dick, my opinion means jackshit.
It's like trying to tell someone they if they walk off a cliff, they are gonna die. Then having the person tell you that you are an idiot and you continue to watch them walk, fall of the edge of the cliff and see them splat all over the ground.
And if you weren't offended, why the sweet little comment in your journal? Apparently, it must of struck a nerve, or else you would of just let it slide. You should know better than to leave little comments in your journal and expect me to just not say anything. If you wanna leave little tidbits for me to find like that especially labeled for me, expect reprocussion.
Sorry about me messing up your little murr saying, maybe I should ask the REAL griffons out there how you say it.
Re: Aaaand the title is amazingly gay.ironicalMay 22 2003, 19:05:45 UTC
Alright, now you're just being a cockass.
"I'm tired of you always asking for what I think and then talking to me like I'm a fucking child and I possibly have NO idea what I'm talking about because it's all allegations, "seems to be's" and accustations."
When was the last time I asked you what you thought? A long time ago. I think it was around the time when Kreagor died. Even then I don't remember saying, "Hey, Jason - what do you think about...?" More along the lines of, "Yeah... I came to this realization, 'cause a good friend of mine died... Gheeze."
"Well, dur. We told you that all along." Thanks. Sometimes it takes something major to make things sink in. Thanks for being such a dick when a close friend of mine DIED.
The person in question? When did this start about Justin? Don't think I've asked you any information about what's going on between me and him, by the way. Why would I?
"Last time I tried to talk to you about it, I tried to come at it in another fashion, because anytime I confront you, you put on your fucking blinders and get the mentality that the person you are talking to is a fucking 5 year old."
Didn't ask for your opinion there on that, so, it seems to me, you decided to post your opinion by means of sending me a song with a hidden message. "Ooh, maybe Kat will figure it out. Tee hee hee! Aren't I smart?"
Just -seems-, I said that when I was talking to you that night. And the entire time, I was like, "Why are you sending me this? Hidden messages and whatnot?"
"OMG stop overreacting!"
Hah. How is that "acting like I'm 30+ years old and treating you like you're 5"? When was the last time I talked down to you? When was the last time I talked down to you without immediately apologizing for it?
LONG time ago, thank you. If you say this is, fine, go ahead. I'm pointing out facts, and you're coming up with a bunch of bullshit. Some of it's shit that you say I DO, RIGHT AT THIS VERY MOMENT, when I haven't done shit in a long long time. I haven't even fucking TALKED to you since Kreagor died. NO conversation whatsoever, other than you saying "OMG STOP LEG-HUMPING JUSTIN." May. All the way back in MAY.
"And if you weren't offended, why the sweet little comment in your journal? Apparently, it must of struck a nerve, or else you would of just let it slide."
Didn't I just explain that? Let me see... With... ""If you don't like what I say (considering you nit pick about EVERY LITTLE THING I DO), then don't read it.""
The reason why I said that - last time I wrote anything remotely about what I felt, what bothered and hurt me, you went off and said "OMG KAT WILL YOU STOP BEING IMMATURE. THESE FEELINGS WILL GO AWAY. STOP FEELING THEM. GROW UP."
So I wrote the message - I don't want my feelings bashed to shreds by you. Also, I was not in the wrong by saying you seem to nit pick on EVERY little thing I do as of late. EVERYTHING about me gets on your nerves, it seems. SEEMS. Why haven't I talked to you as of late? Why haven't I tried to hang around you? You talk down to me, you make me feel like shit by what you say and do.
Last time I mentioned you in MY journal roughly "I'm sick of trying to maintain a friendship with this guy." Reason? This. You flinging shit at me that hasn't happened in quite some time. You nit picking on everything I do. You raging about every little thing. It fuckin' pisses me off, and you know what? IT HURTS, thanks, Jason.
Thanks a whole fucking lot.
"It's like trying to tell someone they if they walk off a cliff, they are gonna die. Then having the person tell you that you are an idiot and you continue to watch them walk, fall of the edge of the cliff and see them splat all over the ground."
That's out of context, and you know it. Some things, as has been proven, need to be experienced before advice sinks in. Sometimes. Not all the time. Give me enough credit for everything else. It's rare that I sit there and stare blankly when someone says "I'm going to throw a brick at your face."
I'm sick of all of this. This is bullshit.
And you can fucking stop with the "maybe I should ask the REAL griffons out there how you say it."
I'm not even going to get into that. You're a fucking low bastard for saying that, Jason. Fuck you.
Re: Aaaand the title is amazingly gay.ironicalMay 22 2003, 19:47:44 UTC
Weeeell, fuck me. This month is May. I meant March.
More than three months, Jason, since I really had a conversation with you. And how long, before that? What was the last conversation TOPIC we had?
I think the last you ever really talked to ME about was what popped into your head when you were horny. I won't get into that, however. -I- won't sink that low.
And I just love how you compared me with something that I am quite obviously not. If you're going to start flinging accusations, at least make them credible. Saying I'm one person who thinks the 'imaginary' world is -real-... That gryphons roam the streets but no one else can see them, that furs and dragons run free in the plains where there is no inhabitance? What else are you going to come up with? Keep them coming.
Re: Aaaand the title is amazingly gay.project_sheepMay 23 2003, 02:02:58 UTC
Fuck this.
You almost got one of my best friends killed and expect me to just forgive and forget? That you deserve all these second chances, like you DESERVE all of his forgiveness. I bit my fucking tongue and, hell, I fucking tried to give you advice so I could stop seeing him everyday either upset or pissed off because of something you did, said or the way you acted. If he wanted to be happy with you, I wasn't gonna get in the way. That's his call to make. But I can tell he was upset, concerned, or in a bad mood because of whatever the fuck was going on between the both of you. I tried to keep as quiet as possible and tried to drop hints to you and all you do is shrug me off and tell me it's a fucking "seems to be" and you give me the I'm better than you attitude. This fucking elitest attitude that you are gonna get with me, after what has happened? No, fuck you, you do not get my forgivness and I'm tired of you walking around talking like you deserve these second chances and all this forgiveness. You are fucking lucky he still talks to you, because if that was me, I'd let you fucking rot for what happened. I've had enough. I'm tired of hearing you piss and moan about it after receiving some advice with SOMEONE HE FUCKING LIVES WITH AND TALKS TO and you shrug it off because I'm this huge fucking dick that knows nothing. If I knew nothing, he wouldn't be here right now. I'm tired of listening to you make 50 million excuses for youself, I'm tired of fucking hearing it and I'm glad I don't have to anymore. So you know what?
Re: Aaaand the title is amazingly gay.ironicalMay 23 2003, 07:27:58 UTC
First off. "You almost got one of my best friends killed and expect me to just forgive and forget?"
I did not ALMOST GET HIM KILLED. I did not say, "Here, Justin, drink this." No. He decided to do that on his own. It was my folly not to tell someone when I finally found out. But I am not going to get into that. I am not going to explain myself to you.
Who in the world told you that I expected you to forgive and forget? Whoever that was can fucking die. How many fucking times have I said, "I don't seek to have people forget." I don't. I never did. NOT ONCE. I never asked you, Justin, or anyone, to forget about anything. Go ahead and ask Justin how many times I said that. You might be surprised, if you still have a hard on for that "OMG SHE'S WANTING ME TO FORGET?!?!?!"
"I fucking tried to give you advice so I could stop seeing him everyday either upset or pissed off because of something you did, said or the way you acted."
Each time I talked to you you raged on me. So I stopped. I wasn't going to sit there and have you dance around me with a cattle prod, shoving it in my skin. Fuck that. I felt bad enough as it is. I STILL FEEL FUCKING BAD. Do I have to tell you how many fucking times? Fuck that.
"I'm tired of you walking around talking like you deserve these second chances and all this forgiveness."
I felt I deserved a second chance for the fuck up on New Years. I never asked for a second chance for Christmas. I felt I deserved the chance to prove something, and I while I haven't exactly been placed in the same situation, I am 100% positive it will not happen again, regardless of what you, or anyone else, say.
"You are fucking lucky he still talks to you, because if that was me, I'd let you fucking rot for what happened. I've had enough."
You think I don't feel that I'm lucky? It seems you know I am incredibly lucky that he even talks to me, let alone was with me for a time after. You seem to know this, BUT THINK I DON'T. Fuck you.
You have no fucking idea how incredibly honored I am that I even can sit in his presence. I'm so incredibly grateful that he talks to me, you have no fucking idea. Stop shoving words in my mouth.
Stop being surprised if I spit them back at you.
"I'm tired of hearing you piss and moan about it after receiving some advice with SOMEONE HE FUCKING LIVES WITH AND TALKS TO and you shrug it off because I'm this huge fucking dick that knows nothing."
All you ever did whenever I asked you anything was bitch. Bitch, and rage. So I stopped. And plus? I KNOW that you didn't know everything. I've even asked him and he's said the same. And I KNEW that he told you guys some things, and told me some other things, so there was a gap in what each of us knew from him.
Why do you think I had even asked you about ANYTHING to begin with? BECAUSE YOU FUCKING LIVE WITH HIM. That's why I asked. So there's no way in hell I thought that you knew nothing of what you were talking about. How many times have I apologized for talking down to you, if that's indeed what I did? HOW MANY TIMES?
I never ever thought you knew nothing. I wouldn't have asked you if I thought you didn't. So fuck you.
"I'm tired of listening to you make 50 million excuses for youself, I'm tired of fucking hearing it and I'm glad I don't have to anymore."
Excuses? I tried to EXPLAIN my mishap on NEW YEARS. That just enraged you more so I JUST FUCKING CUT IT OUT. I never fucking talked to you again about that after a SHORT TIME. Each time you walked in on Justin, you AUTOMATICALLY ASSUMED that it was about that and it enraged you more, when it's a fact that more than HALF THE TIME it was not.
I haven't said shit to you about anything. I haven't made any fucking excuses.
Who's the one being high and mighty, Mr. Jason?
Oh, one more thing - I've been told something along the lines of... "You ever wonder why the guys hate you so much? 'cause you valued dating him over his life."
That is as far fetched an accusation as I've ever heard. It's simply not true. Anyone who fucking things that of me can fucking roll over and die. Fuck it. I'm tired of THAT shit, and I will not put up with it anymore.
It's like trying to tell someone they if they walk off a cliff, they are gonna die. Then having the person tell you that you are an idiot and you continue to watch them walk, fall of the edge of the cliff and see them splat all over the ground.
And if you weren't offended, why the sweet little comment in your journal? Apparently, it must of struck a nerve, or else you would of just let it slide. You should know better than to leave little comments in your journal and expect me to just not say anything. If you wanna leave little tidbits for me to find like that especially labeled for me, expect reprocussion.
Sorry about me messing up your little murr saying, maybe I should ask the REAL griffons out there how you say it.
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"I'm tired of you always asking for what I think and then talking to me like I'm a fucking child and I possibly have NO idea what I'm talking about because it's all allegations, "seems to be's" and accustations."
When was the last time I asked you what you thought? A long time ago. I think it was around the time when Kreagor died. Even then I don't remember saying, "Hey, Jason - what do you think about...?" More along the lines of, "Yeah... I came to this realization, 'cause a good friend of mine died... Gheeze."
"Well, dur. We told you that all along." Thanks. Sometimes it takes something major to make things sink in. Thanks for being such a dick when a close friend of mine DIED.
The person in question? When did this start about Justin? Don't think I've asked you any information about what's going on between me and him, by the way. Why would I?
"Last time I tried to talk to you about it, I tried to come at it in another fashion, because anytime I confront you, you put on your fucking blinders and get the mentality that the person you are talking to is a fucking 5 year old."
Didn't ask for your opinion there on that, so, it seems to me, you decided to post your opinion by means of sending me a song with a hidden message. "Ooh, maybe Kat will figure it out. Tee hee hee! Aren't I smart?"
Just -seems-, I said that when I was talking to you that night. And the entire time, I was like, "Why are you sending me this? Hidden messages and whatnot?"
"OMG stop overreacting!"
Hah. How is that "acting like I'm 30+ years old and treating you like you're 5"? When was the last time I talked down to you? When was the last time I talked down to you without immediately apologizing for it?
LONG time ago, thank you. If you say this is, fine, go ahead. I'm pointing out facts, and you're coming up with a bunch of bullshit. Some of it's shit that you say I DO, RIGHT AT THIS VERY MOMENT, when I haven't done shit in a long long time. I haven't even fucking TALKED to you since Kreagor died. NO conversation whatsoever, other than you saying "OMG STOP LEG-HUMPING JUSTIN." May. All the way back in MAY.
"And if you weren't offended, why the sweet little comment in your journal? Apparently, it must of struck a nerve, or else you would of just let it slide."
Didn't I just explain that? Let me see... With... ""If you don't like what I say (considering you nit pick about EVERY LITTLE THING I DO), then don't read it.""
The reason why I said that - last time I wrote anything remotely about what I felt, what bothered and hurt me, you went off and said "OMG KAT WILL YOU STOP BEING IMMATURE. THESE FEELINGS WILL GO AWAY. STOP FEELING THEM. GROW UP."
So I wrote the message - I don't want my feelings bashed to shreds by you. Also, I was not in the wrong by saying you seem to nit pick on EVERY little thing I do as of late. EVERYTHING about me gets on your nerves, it seems. SEEMS. Why haven't I talked to you as of late? Why haven't I tried to hang around you? You talk down to me, you make me feel like shit by what you say and do.
Last time I mentioned you in MY journal roughly "I'm sick of trying to maintain a friendship with this guy." Reason? This. You flinging shit at me that hasn't happened in quite some time. You nit picking on everything I do. You raging about every little thing. It fuckin' pisses me off, and you know what? IT HURTS, thanks, Jason.
Thanks a whole fucking lot.
"It's like trying to tell someone they if they walk off a cliff, they are gonna die. Then having the person tell you that you are an idiot and you continue to watch them walk, fall of the edge of the cliff and see them splat all over the ground."
That's out of context, and you know it. Some things, as has been proven, need to be experienced before advice sinks in. Sometimes. Not all the time. Give me enough credit for everything else. It's rare that I sit there and stare blankly when someone says "I'm going to throw a brick at your face."
I'm sick of all of this. This is bullshit.
And you can fucking stop with the "maybe I should ask the REAL griffons out there how you say it."
I'm not even going to get into that. You're a fucking low bastard for saying that, Jason. Fuck you.
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More than three months, Jason, since I really had a conversation with you. And how long, before that? What was the last conversation TOPIC we had?
I think the last you ever really talked to ME about was what popped into your head when you were horny. I won't get into that, however. -I- won't sink that low.
And I just love how you compared me with something that I am quite obviously not. If you're going to start flinging accusations, at least make them credible. Saying I'm one person who thinks the 'imaginary' world is -real-... That gryphons roam the streets but no one else can see them, that furs and dragons run free in the plains where there is no inhabitance? What else are you going to come up with? Keep them coming.
It's almost funny.
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You almost got one of my best friends killed and expect me to just forgive and forget? That you deserve all these second chances, like you DESERVE all of his forgiveness. I bit my fucking tongue and, hell, I fucking tried to give you advice so I could stop seeing him everyday either upset or pissed off because of something you did, said or the way you acted. If he wanted to be happy with you, I wasn't gonna get in the way. That's his call to make. But I can tell he was upset, concerned, or in a bad mood because of whatever the fuck was going on between the both of you. I tried to keep as quiet as possible and tried to drop hints to you and all you do is shrug me off and tell me it's a fucking "seems to be" and you give me the I'm better than you attitude. This fucking elitest attitude that you are gonna get with me, after what has happened? No, fuck you, you do not get my forgivness and I'm tired of you walking around talking like you deserve these second chances and all this forgiveness. You are fucking lucky he still talks to you, because if that was me, I'd let you fucking rot for what happened. I've had enough. I'm tired of hearing you piss and moan about it after receiving some advice with SOMEONE HE FUCKING LIVES WITH AND TALKS TO and you shrug it off because I'm this huge fucking dick that knows nothing. If I knew nothing, he wouldn't be here right now. I'm tired of listening to you make 50 million excuses for youself, I'm tired of fucking hearing it and I'm glad I don't have to anymore. So you know what?
Fuck you AND the horse you rode in on.
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I did not ALMOST GET HIM KILLED. I did not say, "Here, Justin, drink this." No. He decided to do that on his own. It was my folly not to tell someone when I finally found out. But I am not going to get into that. I am not going to explain myself to you.
Who in the world told you that I expected you to forgive and forget? Whoever that was can fucking die. How many fucking times have I said, "I don't seek to have people forget." I don't. I never did. NOT ONCE. I never asked you, Justin, or anyone, to forget about anything. Go ahead and ask Justin how many times I said that. You might be surprised, if you still have a hard on for that "OMG SHE'S WANTING ME TO FORGET?!?!?!"
"I fucking tried to give you advice so I could stop seeing him everyday either upset or pissed off because of something you did, said or the way you acted."
Each time I talked to you you raged on me. So I stopped. I wasn't going to sit there and have you dance around me with a cattle prod, shoving it in my skin. Fuck that. I felt bad enough as it is. I STILL FEEL FUCKING BAD. Do I have to tell you how many fucking times? Fuck that.
"I'm tired of you walking around talking like you deserve these second chances and all this forgiveness."
I felt I deserved a second chance for the fuck up on New Years. I never asked for a second chance for Christmas. I felt I deserved the chance to prove something, and I while I haven't exactly been placed in the same situation, I am 100% positive it will not happen again, regardless of what you, or anyone else, say.
"You are fucking lucky he still talks to you, because if that was me, I'd let you fucking rot for what happened. I've had enough."
You think I don't feel that I'm lucky? It seems you know I am incredibly lucky that he even talks to me, let alone was with me for a time after. You seem to know this, BUT THINK I DON'T. Fuck you.
You have no fucking idea how incredibly honored I am that I even can sit in his presence. I'm so incredibly grateful that he talks to me, you have no fucking idea. Stop shoving words in my mouth.
Stop being surprised if I spit them back at you.
"I'm tired of hearing you piss and moan about it after receiving some advice with SOMEONE HE FUCKING LIVES WITH AND TALKS TO and you shrug it off because I'm this huge fucking dick that knows nothing."
All you ever did whenever I asked you anything was bitch. Bitch, and rage. So I stopped. And plus? I KNOW that you didn't know everything. I've even asked him and he's said the same. And I KNEW that he told you guys some things, and told me some other things, so there was a gap in what each of us knew from him.
Why do you think I had even asked you about ANYTHING to begin with? BECAUSE YOU FUCKING LIVE WITH HIM. That's why I asked. So there's no way in hell I thought that you knew nothing of what you were talking about. How many times have I apologized for talking down to you, if that's indeed what I did? HOW MANY TIMES?
I never ever thought you knew nothing. I wouldn't have asked you if I thought you didn't. So fuck you.
"I'm tired of listening to you make 50 million excuses for youself, I'm tired of fucking hearing it and I'm glad I don't have to anymore."
Excuses? I tried to EXPLAIN my mishap on NEW YEARS. That just enraged you more so I JUST FUCKING CUT IT OUT. I never fucking talked to you again about that after a SHORT TIME. Each time you walked in on Justin, you AUTOMATICALLY ASSUMED that it was about that and it enraged you more, when it's a fact that more than HALF THE TIME it was not.
I haven't said shit to you about anything. I haven't made any fucking excuses.
Who's the one being high and mighty, Mr. Jason?
Oh, one more thing - I've been told something along the lines of... "You ever wonder why the guys hate you so much? 'cause you valued dating him over his life."
That is as far fetched an accusation as I've ever heard. It's simply not true. Anyone who fucking things that of me can fucking roll over and die. Fuck it. I'm tired of THAT shit, and I will not put up with it anymore.
No, sir. Fuck you.
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