i can't know the future so i'm studying the past.
history is like secrets, gossip, and i'm always trying to find out more, but nothing has to be kept secret, i can tell everyone about what happened, help them understand why things are the way they are now. i like holding that knowledge to back up my constant theorerizing. i like knowing stuff that fits together with other stuff i know like a puzzle, that fits with things i have experienced. sometimes reading about the history about american cities and social movements is like a choose your own adventure book, kind of. but you don't get eaten by a monster and die in the end. it's just that when i'm done with something, when i want to know "what happens next", i realize that what will happen next hasn't happened yet, and it will start with me and others like me. so it's my beginning.