hoenstly. the reason your mad at me is so lame. i kept thinkn bout that chik after i saw those pics. so i talked 2 keith told him but them. and stuff. and he asked who sent them to me. i said no one important. then hes like who. i dont lie 2 him. i wasnt going to lie. it really isnt a big deal. its not like i told him u sent them to piss you off. i told him u sent them bc he asked me. i was upset about him and her and thinking about it a lot. so i talked 2 him about it and told him bout the pics. its not like i dont respect you. because i do. i told him u saw them on myspace and just sent them to me bc u thought it was funny. i cant help what he does. he obviously wanted 2 no why u sent them and asked you.and u said the same thing i said to him. like. i dont no what to tell you. but what u think is not how it is. i dont tell him u sent it 2 me to get me upset. i wasnt upset at first when you sent them to me. but then after thinking about it and dwelling on it i got upset. and what i do when im upset. i talk 2 keith about it. no matter what it is. like you just happned to be the one who sent them 2 me it could of been anyone. its not like hes mad at you. he could care less. im sorry if i did something wrong. but i really dont think i did. i no u believe im like out to get you. but thats not the case. that would never be the case.bc i do respect you. and i dont no how u can think i dont. if i didnt care bout you or anything like that I wouldnt be writing this hole thing trying to explain it to you. but iff you really want to believe i did it to hurt you or get you introuible then believe it. but i no and keith nos thats not the case. i did it bc i was upset and wanted to make things clear with him. oh well i dont no what else to tell you.
yes that's my reason for being mad.. and no its not lame... you don't seem to understand how tired i am of shit like that happening!
It hasn't in awhile and i thought i was rid of all that bullshit drama.... It was ridiculous for u to be so ok with it one night then the next apparently freak out... and even tho it not be at me.. it some how comes back at me... and it looks like i did something wrong... when i simply only showd u bc i thought it might b something u wanted to see..
I don't talk to Keith.. but i don't want the only time that i do to b him asking me why i did something and me having to justify myself.... I don't want him feeling like im out to ruin the two of u bc... CLEARLY... im not... and i thought that was made obvious previously.
If i ever thought for a second that it would have turnd out like that, i would have NEVER even botherd to show you... i cant stand it.. how sometimes ur so mature and so easy to get along with just to turn and b so childish and make something so simple... so complex and a big deal...
u don't understand... i don't need to deal with shit like that! Even something as miniscule as it was... it was me again left to justify myself and give a reason for my doing, when i should never have had to, bc my intentions were not malisons but some how they were misconstrued into such.
you may think this isn't a big deal... but u also lookd at those pictures had no problem just to turn around and some how its a huge problem.... my advice to you love.. leave the past in the past. i showd u almost to get a laugh out of it... not to bring up old problems, but that's what happened..
I ignored you..yes.. bc i didn't feel i had to go thro all this and explain something that should have been so clear. just as talking to keith caused problems and unnecessary drama... if talking to is going to cause those problems... i suppose its just another thing i will have to stop doing...
I cant blame you for being who you are... but you cant blame me for hating it...
i dont want this to cause any more problems... its just my reason... the one uve been asking for.. the one u think u have all figured out. it's not like this is just happening now... its been in my thoughts for awhile. you may not like things about me and that's understandable... but i cant stand the way you go about certain things... and who am i to judge?.. all i can do it distance myself from it...
im sorry thats how i am. things like that do and will bring up old feelings for me and its something i need to handle myself. keith doesnt think that. i told him when u sent them we both had a laugh about it. bc we did. come on. but then. i just got depressed and upset and told him about the pictures. he DoES no u arent out to "ruin" us. he nos that very well. i think he just wanted to no why u would send them to me thats all. like i understand where your coming from bc this has happened so many times. but this is how i am. and its not that im childish. its not like i told him just to piss you off. i told him bc he asked. ya know. i told him it was for laughs and at the time it was. but then for me. it escalated into a whole bunch of left feelings that never had closure. which last night or when ever finally got closure.i NEVER ever do these things to fuck with you. or fuck with what you and keith have has a friendhsip. bc i no u believe that. but honestly i love to talk to you. like you understand and yes. i may have a lil more growing up to do. but you have to remeber you are wise beyong your years and dont act 17 at all. anyway. if you dont want to talk to me. i understand. but im sorrii
i kept thinkn bout that chik after i saw those pics.
so i talked 2 keith told him but them. and stuff. and
he asked who sent them to me. i said no one important.
then hes like who. i dont lie 2 him. i wasnt going to lie.
it really isnt a big deal. its not like i told him u sent them
to piss you off. i told him u sent them bc he asked me.
i was upset about him and her and thinking about it a lot.
so i talked 2 him about it and told him bout the pics.
its not like i dont respect you. because i do. i told him u saw them
on myspace and just sent them to me bc u thought it was funny.
i cant help what he does. he obviously wanted 2 no why
u sent them and asked you.and u said the same thing i said to him.
like. i dont no what to tell you. but what u think is not how it is.
i dont tell him u sent it 2 me to get me upset. i wasnt upset at first when you sent them to me. but then after thinking about it and dwelling on it i got upset. and what i do when im upset. i talk 2 keith about it. no matter what it is. like you just happned to be the one who sent them 2 me it could of been anyone. its not like hes mad at you. he could care less. im sorry if i did something wrong. but i really dont think i did. i no u believe im like out to get you. but thats not the case. that would never be the case.bc i do respect you. and i dont no how u can think i dont. if i didnt care bout you or anything like that I wouldnt be writing this hole thing trying to explain it to you. but iff you really want to believe i did it to hurt you or get you introuible then believe it. but i no and keith nos thats not the case. i did it bc i was upset and wanted to make things clear with him. oh well i dont no what else to tell you.
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and no its not lame...
you don't seem to understand how tired i am of shit like that happening!
It hasn't in awhile and i thought i was rid of all that bullshit drama.... It was ridiculous for u to be so ok with it one night then the next apparently freak out... and even tho it not be at me.. it some how comes back at me... and it looks like i did something wrong... when i simply only showd u bc i thought it might b something u wanted to see..
I don't talk to Keith..
but i don't want the only time that i do to b him asking me why i did something and me having to justify myself.... I don't want him feeling like im out to ruin the two of u bc... CLEARLY... im not... and i thought that was made obvious previously.
If i ever thought for a second that it would have turnd out like that, i would have NEVER even botherd to show you... i cant stand it.. how sometimes ur so mature and so easy to get along with just to turn and b so childish and make something so simple... so complex and a big deal...
u don't understand...
i don't need to deal with shit like that! Even something as miniscule as it was... it was me again left to justify myself and give a reason for my doing, when i should never have had to, bc my intentions were not malisons but some how they were misconstrued into such.
you may think this isn't a big deal... but u also lookd at those pictures had no problem just to turn around and some how its a huge problem.... my advice to you love.. leave the past in the past. i showd u almost to get a laugh out of it... not to bring up old problems, but that's what happened..
I ignored you..yes.. bc i didn't feel i had to go thro all this and explain something that should have been so clear. just as talking to keith caused problems and unnecessary drama... if talking to is going to cause those problems... i suppose its just another thing i will have to stop doing...
I cant blame you for being who you are... but you cant blame me for hating it...
i dont want this to cause any more problems... its just my reason... the one uve been asking for.. the one u think u have all figured out. it's not like this is just happening now... its been in my thoughts for awhile. you may not like things about me and that's understandable... but i cant stand the way you go about certain things... and who am i to judge?.. all i can do it distance myself from it...
and this would b my doing so.
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