Game Over
So I heard from the landlord today, obviously the dont give a flying crap about anybodys situations, or hardships, they like every other freakin business only care about one thing, money, they didnt even give me a chance to explain, they just said hey, too bad so sad, tell it to a judge, then sent me to the court system, now I owe court fees too, all because some guy couldnt clean up after himself. Im ashamed of myself and what Ive been reduced to. Ive tried to do everything the right way, Ive tried to help out other when it was needed, Ive always tried to be the nice guy everybody could turn to, but now Im paying for it. In return for everything Ive tried to do I get a lifetime of pain suffering and torment, and now what could be an eviction from my home. Whats the point? Why should you even try to be good, and nice and all that if all that ever happens is you getr screwed in the end. I dedicated myself to my work, and trying to do things the right way, and this is what i get? Well Im tired of trying, I give up, Im tired of not living up to expectations, Im tired of being a disappointment, Im tired of failing. And no this isnt about anybody, this is solely about me, this is all me, I hate me, I hate what I am, I hate what Ive become, I hate being a failure, I hate not being good enough, I hate me.