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I sometimes wonder how good I really am with change. It happens regularly and I always adjust, but I get so squeamish and nervous at the possibility. I graduated law school in 2001 and entered the "real world" (as everyone likes to call it) shortly after taking the bar exam. I have had this job for four years now. I enjoy it, but I don't. (Does that make any sense?) I've had a few difficulties with an old supervisor, who was in a constant competition with me. I never understood it and probably never will.
So, when a position opened up within the company on the claims side of things, I took it. And now truly enjoy the person I work for. The other supervisor (a female) still has some issues, but I've slowly learned to ignore it. And I love my fellow co-workers minus one or two. The hours are great for an attorney and the benefits are fabulous. But my commute is about 45 minutes with no traffic, which tends to be quite longer on the busy and accident-prone I-75. And I don't feel completely respected by the some of the upper male authority figures. In claims meetings or pre-trial conferences, I am always spoken over or sushed. And when I stand up for myself, its indicated that I am being emotional.
So I started applying for jobs closer to home.
And last week, I got a call for an interview. It would be an in-house counsel position... which means I would not be working for a firm, but for a company...much like I do now. And the interview is tomorrow. The prospect is exciting as the quoted salary is about $10,000 more than I am making right now, which is a huge deal given the fact that I have a mortgage-like payment for repayment of my law school loans. The work week is 36 hours. And it is about 25 minutes away from home. So, why am I so damn nervous about this??? It sounds great. But I have these butterflies in my stomach. And all these crazy thoughts keep running through my head. What if I take the job and hate it? What if the work is boring? Or I'm not motivated? What if the co-workers aren't friendly? What if they don't offer a lot of vacation time (something I desperately need)? Blah, blah, blah!
So, when a position opened up within the company on the claims side of things, I took it. And now truly enjoy the person I work for. The other supervisor (a female) still has some issues, but I've slowly learned to ignore it. And I love my fellow co-workers minus one or two. The hours are great for an attorney and the benefits are fabulous. But my commute is about 45 minutes with no traffic, which tends to be quite longer on the busy and accident-prone I-75. And I don't feel completely respected by the some of the upper male authority figures. In claims meetings or pre-trial conferences, I am always spoken over or sushed. And when I stand up for myself, its indicated that I am being emotional.
So I started applying for jobs closer to home.
And last week, I got a call for an interview. It would be an in-house counsel position... which means I would not be working for a firm, but for a company...much like I do now. And the interview is tomorrow. The prospect is exciting as the quoted salary is about $10,000 more than I am making right now, which is a huge deal given the fact that I have a mortgage-like payment for repayment of my law school loans. The work week is 36 hours. And it is about 25 minutes away from home. So, why am I so damn nervous about this??? It sounds great. But I have these butterflies in my stomach. And all these crazy thoughts keep running through my head. What if I take the job and hate it? What if the work is boring? Or I'm not motivated? What if the co-workers aren't friendly? What if they don't offer a lot of vacation time (something I desperately need)? Blah, blah, blah!