Without Apology
I'm aware that this probably sounds petty, but I'm not going to preamble, and qualify and apologize. Quite frankly: Women are schooled far, far too much in the art of downplaying our needs and feelings, and I've been making a conscious effort not to do that anymore.
A couple days ago, I posted a yuri fic to hetalia. I wrote it for my girlfriend and decided to share because, you know, most writers write shit so people will read it, even if they do so anonymously. So far, no one has commented on the fic, and I'm feeling a little hurt and sad about that. I mean, I get that this is a fandom like just about every fandom on the fucking planet dominated by yaoi. Now, that's fine. In fact, most of my Hetalia fics are yaoi. But it bugs me that, in a community of something like 30,000 people, not a single person wanted to read this. Especially given that a lot of Hetalia fans love genderswap fics (for the record, this fic featured female versions of Russia, Germany, Lithuania and Estonia and a Russia/Estonia/Lithuania threesome).
I know that not everything I write is HOMG GENIOUSE!!!11oneeleventyone!111, and that this fic probably wasn't the best thing I've written for the series. I'm not exactly objective, so I'm open to the possibility that the fic was also complete shit despite my girlfriend liking it. The fact that I make my living as a writer doesn't mean I'm immune from creating garbage.
Still ... not one person presumably even read this, or clicked the cut out of curiosity or insomnia?
I mean, know that we Hetalia yuri fans are pretty rare (see the hetalia_yuri comm in all its zero post glory), but come on. Not one person could even tell me that this fic was bad and I should feel bad?
Like I said, most writers write to communicate. And when we fail to do so, it hurts. Especially if what you've written isn't riddled with five zillion spelling errors and a ton of mistakes.
*shrug* It won't stop me from writing Hetalia yuri or anything, but I guess I'm not really expecting anyone to notice or care when I do.
A couple days ago, I posted a yuri fic to hetalia. I wrote it for my girlfriend and decided to share because, you know, most writers write shit so people will read it, even if they do so anonymously. So far, no one has commented on the fic, and I'm feeling a little hurt and sad about that. I mean, I get that this is a fandom like just about every fandom on the fucking planet dominated by yaoi. Now, that's fine. In fact, most of my Hetalia fics are yaoi. But it bugs me that, in a community of something like 30,000 people, not a single person wanted to read this. Especially given that a lot of Hetalia fans love genderswap fics (for the record, this fic featured female versions of Russia, Germany, Lithuania and Estonia and a Russia/Estonia/Lithuania threesome).
I know that not everything I write is HOMG GENIOUSE!!!11oneeleventyone!111, and that this fic probably wasn't the best thing I've written for the series. I'm not exactly objective, so I'm open to the possibility that the fic was also complete shit despite my girlfriend liking it. The fact that I make my living as a writer doesn't mean I'm immune from creating garbage.
Still ... not one person presumably even read this, or clicked the cut out of curiosity or insomnia?
I mean, know that we Hetalia yuri fans are pretty rare (see the hetalia_yuri comm in all its zero post glory), but come on. Not one person could even tell me that this fic was bad and I should feel bad?
Like I said, most writers write to communicate. And when we fail to do so, it hurts. Especially if what you've written isn't riddled with five zillion spelling errors and a ton of mistakes.
*shrug* It won't stop me from writing Hetalia yuri or anything, but I guess I'm not really expecting anyone to notice or care when I do.