damnit
ok lets see i'll do an update on my crappy life i suppose..since i've got a little over an hour to kill before i have to present a problem that's completely wrong on every lvl to the class in accounting. i am completely lost on this crap right now...hopefully i'll understand it after i make a fool of myself in class. i don't really care about making a fool of myself in there cause i only know like one person, and i don't care what complete strangers think about me at all...if they have beef they can go straight to hell. i can't stand my major anymore...i tried to tough it out so that i would have a job when i graduated guaranteed...but the hell with it. i'd rather scrounge around for a bit and be happy with my perfession then go straight to a job that i can't stand doing. if i stay in this field i'll end up killing someone, and that's that.
i think i'm going to go into education..probly elementary school, either math or english, with a minor in music perhaps. i'd much rather these remaining days in college go towards something that i'm actually going to use when i get out. just thinking about my major anymore makes me sick to my stomack...i actually have felt like crap since last night when i realized i was slowly going insane because of this stupid field. i guess i finally realized what everyone was saying when they REPEATEDLY told me "i don't see you as an accountant." thnx guys...i understand now...
i do however have to finish this semester with the best grades i can possibly muster out of my classes so that i will be in good standings next semester when i hopefully start my new field... as it stands now, if i can just hang on the grades that i have, then with the exception of one i'll be fine. have a C in history (which should come up to either an A or a B), an A in communications, an A or a B in accounting (which will probably be more like a C) and at this point i know i'm failing economics...(but i'm hoping to pull a C in there...just barely)
so lets see, with those standings...A, B, C, C...not great, but not bad either. ESPECIALLY since i stopped caring about this field alltogether. if i can just hang on to sanity for a little longer then i'll be ok i suppose...
this weekend hopefully will help me calm down at least a little...i basically have a three day weekend...with only one class at 9am on friday that's over by 10, i'll just go back to the apartment and go back to bed for a while..which is no doubt what i'll be doing today after i go to class, then go to my advisor's office to see what i'll need to take for my education career. tomarrow should be nice and relaxing though...throughout the weekend i'm not going to be able to have too much fun though cause i have to have a 5 paper rough draft due for communications by monday, and i have 2 tests (one in econ, and one in accounting) on tuesday plus two problems due in accounting on the same day..so yea, busy as weekend, but nonetheless i'm determined to have at least a little fun. i dont' think the paper will take me too long, but studying for the tests definately will...maybe i should get a headstart on those today/tonight.
i've got so much more i could say...but i think i'll leave it at that...don't want to get too personal on my thoughts cause a lot of them are jumbled anyways...and i don't like to air that kind of stuff...just being bored right now while i wait for class, figured i'd rant for a little bit........
i think i'm going to go into education..probly elementary school, either math or english, with a minor in music perhaps. i'd much rather these remaining days in college go towards something that i'm actually going to use when i get out. just thinking about my major anymore makes me sick to my stomack...i actually have felt like crap since last night when i realized i was slowly going insane because of this stupid field. i guess i finally realized what everyone was saying when they REPEATEDLY told me "i don't see you as an accountant." thnx guys...i understand now...
i do however have to finish this semester with the best grades i can possibly muster out of my classes so that i will be in good standings next semester when i hopefully start my new field... as it stands now, if i can just hang on the grades that i have, then with the exception of one i'll be fine. have a C in history (which should come up to either an A or a B), an A in communications, an A or a B in accounting (which will probably be more like a C) and at this point i know i'm failing economics...(but i'm hoping to pull a C in there...just barely)
so lets see, with those standings...A, B, C, C...not great, but not bad either. ESPECIALLY since i stopped caring about this field alltogether. if i can just hang on to sanity for a little longer then i'll be ok i suppose...
this weekend hopefully will help me calm down at least a little...i basically have a three day weekend...with only one class at 9am on friday that's over by 10, i'll just go back to the apartment and go back to bed for a while..which is no doubt what i'll be doing today after i go to class, then go to my advisor's office to see what i'll need to take for my education career. tomarrow should be nice and relaxing though...throughout the weekend i'm not going to be able to have too much fun though cause i have to have a 5 paper rough draft due for communications by monday, and i have 2 tests (one in econ, and one in accounting) on tuesday plus two problems due in accounting on the same day..so yea, busy as weekend, but nonetheless i'm determined to have at least a little fun. i dont' think the paper will take me too long, but studying for the tests definately will...maybe i should get a headstart on those today/tonight.
i've got so much more i could say...but i think i'll leave it at that...don't want to get too personal on my thoughts cause a lot of them are jumbled anyways...and i don't like to air that kind of stuff...just being bored right now while i wait for class, figured i'd rant for a little bit........