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well nothing new here...same old boring shit, different day. i'm really bored with life right now, but there are a few days that are seemingly going to be pretty interesting coming up soon so i guess that'll help momentarily. i turn 22 on the 12th...(this tuesday), but its nothing to get excited about...all the really meaningful birthday's have past already if you ask me. the 22nd, i'm going to the only game all year that i'm going to go to at sherman, so i'll enjoy that i'm sure. i made the decision already to NOT go back and teach at sherman again next year purely on the fact that its just not financially a good idea for me right now. and i don't have the financial security at this point to basically take a month off at work and get very little in return other than self-satisfaction and a lot of stress. if they were a competing band then i "might" reconsider, but i doubt it'd really make a difference. put it this way, i made 400 dollars for teaching there, and to this day i've still only received 200 of it, and i taught this summer. i make around 1200 a month, which is not really that great i know...but this point in time its good for me, but when i was there i only made about 400 that month plus the 200 that i go from the 4 i was supposed to get from there...
the 23rd is a treat to myself...i should be working, but i'm going to switch from evening to morning cause i'm going to a killer show in huntington and at the same time seeing some people that i haven't in a while. so that should be fun...then the next weekend should be ok as well, have shows on both the 28th and 29th...only downside to those shows is that i have to work the morning before each show probably...and that means that my legs are going to be tired as fuck by the time i actually get to play. i did get yesterday off unexpectedly...but all i did was sleep.
in december if all still goes well from where it is at this point...the highlight of my year is expected to forego. we get to go on our first tour...finally. and hopefully by that point we'll have merch finally as well, so that we can spread the word other than just a first impression. that i really can't wait for...
nothing that i used to be able to do to kill time is fun anymore...or at least even as interesting just to get to the next day. music is still very fun, and my seemingly only outlet, but the only time we all have time for that i'm always exhausted from work. i find myself zoning out a whole lot lately...and when i'm not zoning out i'm trying to just kill time by watching tv, being on here, or playing video games...and i can't do any of them for longer than an hour until i'm done with it anymore. EVERYTHING is boring......i think i need "someone" rather than "something"
but i know probably better than most that that's something you can't make happen, or expect to happen. its just something that happens when the time is right. its not something that i think about all that much because of that very reason, but nonetheless its something that still troubles me because i know all the more that there's nothing i can really do about it other than wait...everyone i've met recently either already has plans for someone else, or has plans for no one at all purposely. i'm not complaining and i'm pouting, i'm just simply stating the facts in my case.
.........i do have one person in mind but i don't think she'll ever know..because i don't think i'm ever going to tell her
if she picks on it herself, then bravo...but i'm very subtle and have an abnormal amount of willpower when it comes to these things...which would be obvious to anyone who knows me, cause that's the only way that i could possibly still be sane at this point.
anyways...i'm finished and tired of rambling on here about unimportant shit that no one will read anyways...so i'm going to finish getting ready for a long ass day...
work then practice
the 23rd is a treat to myself...i should be working, but i'm going to switch from evening to morning cause i'm going to a killer show in huntington and at the same time seeing some people that i haven't in a while. so that should be fun...then the next weekend should be ok as well, have shows on both the 28th and 29th...only downside to those shows is that i have to work the morning before each show probably...and that means that my legs are going to be tired as fuck by the time i actually get to play. i did get yesterday off unexpectedly...but all i did was sleep.
in december if all still goes well from where it is at this point...the highlight of my year is expected to forego. we get to go on our first tour...finally. and hopefully by that point we'll have merch finally as well, so that we can spread the word other than just a first impression. that i really can't wait for...
nothing that i used to be able to do to kill time is fun anymore...or at least even as interesting just to get to the next day. music is still very fun, and my seemingly only outlet, but the only time we all have time for that i'm always exhausted from work. i find myself zoning out a whole lot lately...and when i'm not zoning out i'm trying to just kill time by watching tv, being on here, or playing video games...and i can't do any of them for longer than an hour until i'm done with it anymore. EVERYTHING is boring......i think i need "someone" rather than "something"
but i know probably better than most that that's something you can't make happen, or expect to happen. its just something that happens when the time is right. its not something that i think about all that much because of that very reason, but nonetheless its something that still troubles me because i know all the more that there's nothing i can really do about it other than wait...everyone i've met recently either already has plans for someone else, or has plans for no one at all purposely. i'm not complaining and i'm pouting, i'm just simply stating the facts in my case.
.........i do have one person in mind but i don't think she'll ever know..because i don't think i'm ever going to tell her
if she picks on it herself, then bravo...but i'm very subtle and have an abnormal amount of willpower when it comes to these things...which would be obvious to anyone who knows me, cause that's the only way that i could possibly still be sane at this point.
anyways...i'm finished and tired of rambling on here about unimportant shit that no one will read anyways...so i'm going to finish getting ready for a long ass day...
work then practice