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Home from Disney :( It was seriously the best week of my life. I had such an amazing time with Dan. He's the love of my life... and I sincerely he hope he didn't get sick of me while we were down there. I miss him more than anything right now. When I woke up this morning, I turned over in my bed and stared at the empty space beside me. He should have been there. I didn't want to go home last night... I wanted to stay with him as long as I could.
I'm dealing with being home better than I thought I would. I just need something to look forward to. I need to start planning another event so I can keep myself going.
I'm just going to try to explain something just so I make myself clear and try to rationalize how I feel. I wasn't expecting Danny to propose to me while we were in Disney. I knew it wasn't possible at all. I just like being surprised and romantically swept off my feet every once in a while. I don't really think too highly of myself (I'm trying to change that) and I sort of need to be reminded a lot of how much I mean to him...
And ever since I lived on my own in college... I ache for that independence again. I can't express enough how tired I am of living with my mom. My mom and I don't really get along all that well and living together is a constant effort. I've been ready to get out there and be on my own for YEARS now. Now that I've found Danny, my body is saying, "Ok let's go let's go let's GOGOGOGO!" But sadly finances are keeping me from doing that. I don't know what I want to do with my life... and I want to get out of here so badly that I'm panicking. What am I doing to do? Should I write a book asap and try to get it published and jump-start a career? What if I fail?
All I know is that I really need to get out of here. But does Dan want to come with me?
I'm dealing with being home better than I thought I would. I just need something to look forward to. I need to start planning another event so I can keep myself going.
I'm just going to try to explain something just so I make myself clear and try to rationalize how I feel. I wasn't expecting Danny to propose to me while we were in Disney. I knew it wasn't possible at all. I just like being surprised and romantically swept off my feet every once in a while. I don't really think too highly of myself (I'm trying to change that) and I sort of need to be reminded a lot of how much I mean to him...
And ever since I lived on my own in college... I ache for that independence again. I can't express enough how tired I am of living with my mom. My mom and I don't really get along all that well and living together is a constant effort. I've been ready to get out there and be on my own for YEARS now. Now that I've found Danny, my body is saying, "Ok let's go let's go let's GOGOGOGO!" But sadly finances are keeping me from doing that. I don't know what I want to do with my life... and I want to get out of here so badly that I'm panicking. What am I doing to do? Should I write a book asap and try to get it published and jump-start a career? What if I fail?
All I know is that I really need to get out of here. But does Dan want to come with me?