one of the last days has come and gone.
a lotTTt has happened,
field hockey tryouts came and went it's been minusfun waking so early(630) running=relief though
to play for both v AND jv for the past 2 weeks.. while feeling like you belong to neither
band camp- better outcome.
its a way to see a ton of friends that you havent seen or just sparratically throughout the summer and get to finally re-find eachother for a musical experience. as juniors there was more pressure to step up and start acting like it..which i dont but i still think i did ok at being decnet to the freshmen..the cookout was last night. about 3 hours of shopping with the dubises, kelsey and, ariel at sam's club it really was the most food i think i have ever seen and the most money i have ever been in charge of spending. Mr M. said something im sure we all fond strangly familiar..the whole "this was the farthest we have ever come on our show..eEVERRr.."
-pure bs either that or we just really keep getting better every year.. but im just going to assume the latter because i can feel this year is going to be ....__________ . ill fill it in later...
I am a licensed driver in the state of NH as of... last friday.. and oh my that first "maiden voyage"..no mom, no bryan underhill in the corner of my eye to direct.. just me and cd's and the endless road of pavement ahead..uh too bad i ..i mean my family doesnt have a "third car" yet.. aka (mine) >>>i cant wait *prays*
-also over this long duration of lackofupdationnning... someone i really liked who was a sweet wonderful person and a good friend as well to me and my brother..was told they could no longer like or talk to me.. because their mother "doesn't want him getting distracted by girls during high school who will interfere with his acedemics/success/ and ultimately LIFE.." i was blown away when the mother calls with the news randomly ordering my mother to have me stay away from her son because she felt it had gone too far. too far?? ok the farthest it went was us playing golf together and TALKING literally. ok when i say im baptist, people freak but i dont even know what religion this woman from my church is raising her family with. i think she made it up. it's called somewhere along the lines of .. obsessivcompulspridebitchymaterialistselfishhatefulism ..or something. i was so bitter for a while because for the longest time she had seemed to support the innocent "relationship" if you could even call it that. she brought her son to sports games of mine/anything goes musical/ pops concert/ and most activities i happened to be at either at church or at school. i just couldnt comprehend.. i used tobe friends with this woman (now i cant even look at her in the face) and she would bring up her son to me, she acted like she was promoting this..thing and then she destroyed
i stay away now and its helping me to stop thinking
ok well i wrote him a letter (my mom said i best not send it lest you know who finds it somehow)(she wasnt much help, she was embaressed and thought i had wrecked the chance that this boy i liked would continue to be good friends with my brother, thanks for the help mom) so its just sitting there in my dresser hidden under my socks. my explaination, apoplogy, regret, and confusion all there.. at least its no longer in my head. i got it all out on paper and if it ever creeps back in i can finish that stupid letter and bury it along with wiping out the whole memory of this..experience?
another thing involving a male- i discovered some people dont and cant change. i thought i would give it another chance a chance i KNEW would just fail. but i was lonely at this point and took it, his obsession with a relationship that will be ending as soon as this phycho girl is shipped off to college got in the way of him spending a mere few hours hanging out with me. She calls and is told of the awful truth..gasp hes hanging out with..me.. so she goes off on an expected rampage, (we were only having lunch and a movie?!) i have not felt more used before. its as if he hangs out with all these friends that are girls of his all the while knowing this insane girl is going to bitch about it..i was stuck in the middle of a sick twisted relationship used as bait for her routine calling explaination of where he is a why and with who. im guessing just so he can hear how completely bananas she is for him. But now i know so i will just keep my sanity while keeping my distance!
School--> its like. here. and i dont know how i or to feel.
StolenSurvey from Christopher
i will mark the things that apply with $ because thats what i need for gas and for a car (a job?!?!?)
$ I miss somebody right now.
$ I don’t watch much TV these days.
· I love olives.
$ I own lots of books.
$ I wear glasses or contact lenses. for seeing some teachers godawful handwriting especially in red on the white board
· I love to play video games.
$ I’ve tried marijuana.
$ I’ve watched porn movies.
· I have been in a threesome.
$ I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
· I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
$ I curse sometimes
$ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
· I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. not to school..
· I’m TOTALLY smart. TOte TALLLLLLY.not
$ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
· I hate the rain.
$ I’m paranoid at times.
$ I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
$ I need money right now. -see above!
$ I love sushi.
$ I talk really, really fast. -when im excited sometimes
· I have fresh breath in the morning. no? who does? but i brush for certain
$ I have long hair.
· I have lost money in Las Vegas.
$ I have at least one sibling.
· I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
$ I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
· I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D. -i dont like caller id
· I like the way that I look.
$ I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
· I know how to cornrow.
· I am usually pessimistic.
$ I have a lot of mood swings. and a lot of regrets from these..im sorry
· I think prostitution should be legalized. umm negative i dont want anyone standing on MY street corner
· I think Britney Spears is pretty. haaaaaaaaaaaaha
· Slept with a Suitemate.
· I have a hidden talent. -its hidden so i dont know
$ I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. practically the story of my life..
· I have a lot of friends.
$ I am currently single.
$ I have pecked someone of the same sex.
· I enjoy talking on the phone.
· I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
$ I love to shop.
$$$$ I would rather shop than eat.
· I would classify myself as ghetto. -oh yes being in bow im a regular gansta gurl
· I’m bourgeois(e) and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders. i did once playing golf..
· I’m obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
· I don’t hate anyone.
$ I’m a pretty good dancer. by good i mean crazy
· I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
· I have a cell phone.
$ I believe in (a) God(dess)(e)(s). -i believe in THE God.
· I watch MTV on a daily basis.
· I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
$ I’ve rejected someone before.
$ I currently like someone.
· I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
$ I want to have children in the future. sometime..
$ I have changed a diaper before.
· I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
· I am a member of the Tom Green fan club. i didnt know there was one. how do i sign up?
$ I’m not allergic to anything. if i look at the sun i sneeze.
$ I have a lot to learn. ...so im told
· I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger. (oh yeah baby i love wrinkled balls)
· I am shy around the opposite sex. not usually.. unless if im uncomfortable
· I’m online 24/7, even as an away message.
$ I have at least 5 away messages saved.
$ I have tried alcohol or drugs before
$ I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past. <--no in the future?
· I own the "South Park" movie.
· I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
· When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
· I enjoy some country music.
· I would die for my best friends.
· I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. -no their salad buffet is ok though
· I watch soap operas whenever I can.
$ I’m obsessive, and often a perfectionist. at times
· I have used my sexuality to advance my career. -yeah because im secretly a paid sex machine guys..
· I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all. ..i like his dance skills
· I know all the words to Slick Rick’s "Children’s Story".
· Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. i prefer dressing up..i always have
· I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
$ I have dated a close friend’s ex. STupid STupid ...hits self
$ I like surveys/memes.
· I am happy at this moment.
· I’m obsessed with guys.
· Democrat HA
· Conservative Republican yes.. why didnt they put liberal democrat and not just conserv/repub? truth be told i am only conservative socially.
· I am punk rockish.
· I am preppy. i dont know what i am with these
$ I go for older guys/girls, not younger. or my age..
$ I study for tests most of the time. ALl the times
$ I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met. -i like quadnipple knot
· I can work on a car. --basic driver ed skills im assuming dont count.
· I love my job. a JOB WHERE??!?
· I am comfortable with who I am right now.
· I have more than just my ears pierced.
· I walk barefoot wherever I can. i like shoes..
$ I have jumped off a bridge. into a stream.. hehe
$ I love sea turtles. yes and thats why i loved mrs hartung from middle school!!!
· I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup. uh dollardepot.
$ I believe in prophetic dreams.
$ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream. once i get one
$ I am proficient on a musical instrument.
· I worked at McDonald’s restaurant. yuck but it is a JOB..
$ I hate office jobs. -from what i experienced on career day.
· I love sci-fi movies.
$ I think water rules. ~!!!
· I'm going to college out of state. -probably penn. *crossfingers*
· I am adopted.
$ I like sausage. most straight women do.
$ I am a pyro. there's something about lighting a or my fireeee.
· I love the Red Sox.
$ I have thrown up from crying too much.
$ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
$ I love kisses.
$ I fall for the worst people and have been hurt every time. (usually my fault though)
$ I adore bright colors. -ok adore doesnt begin to cut it.
· I love Dear Abby.
· I can’t live without black eyeliner.
· I think school is awesome. -awesome!?
$ I think pigtails serve a purpose. i wear pigtails for a purpose.
$ I don’t know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
· I usually like covers better than originals.
· I don’t like multi-textured ice cream. -what? like no sprinkles for hardcrunchy texture?
· I think John Cusack is adorable.
· I fucking hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
· I watch Food Network way too much.
· I love coaching youth sports.
$ I can pick up things with my toes.
$ I can’t whistle.
· I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes’ slither.
$ I have ridden/owned a horse.
$$$ I still have every journal I’ve ever written in.
· I can’t stick to a diet. SHEER WILLPOWER!!
$ I talk in my sleep. -soimtold
$ I’ve often thought that I was born in the wrong century. ..or decade
$ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. and it comes naturally
$ Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time. yes!easpecially in winter so you can jump into the snow
$ I have jazz in my blood. maybe a teaspoon
· I would not be friends if they weren’t family.
· I wear a toe ring. i have.
· I have a tattoo.
· I love vaginas. -um only mine.
· I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with. work..*tears up*
· I am a caffeine junkie. coffee...ahh and diet pop
· I know who Santos L. Halper is.
· I read trashy romance novels and I am ashamed. -im not ashamed!
· I love wrestling.
$ I sing in the shower.
· I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
· I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
· I have been to over 15 conventions.
$ I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better. (fuck braclettes off of pop bottles)
· I own more than ten video game consoles.
· I learn things far more quickly than my peers.
· I can say HGLGAHLGUAGHLUGAHGLUHG is that german? it sounded almost when i said it.
$ I own more than five different weapons.
· I like my pets better than I do most people
· I cannot sleep without having the tv on.
· I have seen the show Newsradio, or know what it's about
. I can speak/undertand pig latin fluently. no teach me!
. I know everything about sailor moon. no but ive seen enough to want to see more.
$ I am a hopeless romantic.
$ I wish on airplanes as well as falling stars sometimes -i wish on a lot of moving things.
$ I love sour candy. more sour = better.
· I've been on welfare/government aid at some point in my life maybe its about time...
· I hated going to a catholic school. -christian school was ok.
ill update later more has happened that i dont recall.
field hockey tryouts came and went it's been minusfun waking so early(630) running=relief though
to play for both v AND jv for the past 2 weeks.. while feeling like you belong to neither
band camp- better outcome.
its a way to see a ton of friends that you havent seen or just sparratically throughout the summer and get to finally re-find eachother for a musical experience. as juniors there was more pressure to step up and start acting like it..which i dont but i still think i did ok at being decnet to the freshmen..the cookout was last night. about 3 hours of shopping with the dubises, kelsey and, ariel at sam's club it really was the most food i think i have ever seen and the most money i have ever been in charge of spending. Mr M. said something im sure we all fond strangly familiar..the whole "this was the farthest we have ever come on our show..eEVERRr.."
-pure bs either that or we just really keep getting better every year.. but im just going to assume the latter because i can feel this year is going to be ....__________ . ill fill it in later...
I am a licensed driver in the state of NH as of... last friday.. and oh my that first "maiden voyage"..no mom, no bryan underhill in the corner of my eye to direct.. just me and cd's and the endless road of pavement ahead..uh too bad i ..i mean my family doesnt have a "third car" yet.. aka (mine) >>>i cant wait *prays*
-also over this long duration of lackofupdationnning... someone i really liked who was a sweet wonderful person and a good friend as well to me and my brother..was told they could no longer like or talk to me.. because their mother "doesn't want him getting distracted by girls during high school who will interfere with his acedemics/success/ and ultimately LIFE.." i was blown away when the mother calls with the news randomly ordering my mother to have me stay away from her son because she felt it had gone too far. too far?? ok the farthest it went was us playing golf together and TALKING literally. ok when i say im baptist, people freak but i dont even know what religion this woman from my church is raising her family with. i think she made it up. it's called somewhere along the lines of .. obsessivcompulspridebitchymaterialistselfishhatefulism ..or something. i was so bitter for a while because for the longest time she had seemed to support the innocent "relationship" if you could even call it that. she brought her son to sports games of mine/anything goes musical/ pops concert/ and most activities i happened to be at either at church or at school. i just couldnt comprehend.. i used tobe friends with this woman (now i cant even look at her in the face) and she would bring up her son to me, she acted like she was promoting this..thing and then she destroyed
i stay away now and its helping me to stop thinking
ok well i wrote him a letter (my mom said i best not send it lest you know who finds it somehow)(she wasnt much help, she was embaressed and thought i had wrecked the chance that this boy i liked would continue to be good friends with my brother, thanks for the help mom) so its just sitting there in my dresser hidden under my socks. my explaination, apoplogy, regret, and confusion all there.. at least its no longer in my head. i got it all out on paper and if it ever creeps back in i can finish that stupid letter and bury it along with wiping out the whole memory of this..experience?
another thing involving a male- i discovered some people dont and cant change. i thought i would give it another chance a chance i KNEW would just fail. but i was lonely at this point and took it, his obsession with a relationship that will be ending as soon as this phycho girl is shipped off to college got in the way of him spending a mere few hours hanging out with me. She calls and is told of the awful truth..gasp hes hanging out with..me.. so she goes off on an expected rampage, (we were only having lunch and a movie?!) i have not felt more used before. its as if he hangs out with all these friends that are girls of his all the while knowing this insane girl is going to bitch about it..i was stuck in the middle of a sick twisted relationship used as bait for her routine calling explaination of where he is a why and with who. im guessing just so he can hear how completely bananas she is for him. But now i know so i will just keep my sanity while keeping my distance!
School--> its like. here. and i dont know how i or to feel.
StolenSurvey from Christopher
i will mark the things that apply with $ because thats what i need for gas and for a car (a job?!?!?)
$ I miss somebody right now.
$ I don’t watch much TV these days.
· I love olives.
$ I own lots of books.
$ I wear glasses or contact lenses. for seeing some teachers godawful handwriting especially in red on the white board
· I love to play video games.
$ I’ve tried marijuana.
$ I’ve watched porn movies.
· I have been in a threesome.
$ I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
· I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
$ I curse sometimes
$ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
· I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. not to school..
· I’m TOTALLY smart. TOte TALLLLLLY.not
$ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
· I hate the rain.
$ I’m paranoid at times.
$ I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
$ I need money right now. -see above!
$ I love sushi.
$ I talk really, really fast. -when im excited sometimes
· I have fresh breath in the morning. no? who does? but i brush for certain
$ I have long hair.
· I have lost money in Las Vegas.
$ I have at least one sibling.
· I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
$ I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
· I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D. -i dont like caller id
· I like the way that I look.
$ I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
· I know how to cornrow.
· I am usually pessimistic.
$ I have a lot of mood swings. and a lot of regrets from these..im sorry
· I think prostitution should be legalized. umm negative i dont want anyone standing on MY street corner
· I think Britney Spears is pretty. haaaaaaaaaaaaha
· Slept with a Suitemate.
· I have a hidden talent. -its hidden so i dont know
$ I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. practically the story of my life..
· I have a lot of friends.
$ I am currently single.
$ I have pecked someone of the same sex.
· I enjoy talking on the phone.
· I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
$ I love to shop.
$$$$ I would rather shop than eat.
· I would classify myself as ghetto. -oh yes being in bow im a regular gansta gurl
· I’m bourgeois(e) and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders. i did once playing golf..
· I’m obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
· I don’t hate anyone.
$ I’m a pretty good dancer. by good i mean crazy
· I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
· I have a cell phone.
$ I believe in (a) God(dess)(e)(s). -i believe in THE God.
· I watch MTV on a daily basis.
· I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
$ I’ve rejected someone before.
$ I currently like someone.
· I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
$ I want to have children in the future. sometime..
$ I have changed a diaper before.
· I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
· I am a member of the Tom Green fan club. i didnt know there was one. how do i sign up?
$ I’m not allergic to anything. if i look at the sun i sneeze.
$ I have a lot to learn. ...so im told
· I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger. (oh yeah baby i love wrinkled balls)
· I am shy around the opposite sex. not usually.. unless if im uncomfortable
· I’m online 24/7, even as an away message.
$ I have at least 5 away messages saved.
$ I have tried alcohol or drugs before
$ I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past. <--no in the future?
· I own the "South Park" movie.
· I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
· When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
· I enjoy some country music.
· I would die for my best friends.
· I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. -no their salad buffet is ok though
· I watch soap operas whenever I can.
$ I’m obsessive, and often a perfectionist. at times
· I have used my sexuality to advance my career. -yeah because im secretly a paid sex machine guys..
· I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all. ..i like his dance skills
· I know all the words to Slick Rick’s "Children’s Story".
· Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. i prefer dressing up..i always have
· I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
$ I have dated a close friend’s ex. STupid STupid ...hits self
$ I like surveys/memes.
· I am happy at this moment.
· I’m obsessed with guys.
· Democrat HA
· Conservative Republican yes.. why didnt they put liberal democrat and not just conserv/repub? truth be told i am only conservative socially.
· I am punk rockish.
· I am preppy. i dont know what i am with these
$ I go for older guys/girls, not younger. or my age..
$ I study for tests most of the time. ALl the times
$ I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met. -i like quadnipple knot
· I can work on a car. --basic driver ed skills im assuming dont count.
· I love my job. a JOB WHERE??!?
· I am comfortable with who I am right now.
· I have more than just my ears pierced.
· I walk barefoot wherever I can. i like shoes..
$ I have jumped off a bridge. into a stream.. hehe
$ I love sea turtles. yes and thats why i loved mrs hartung from middle school!!!
· I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup. uh dollardepot.
$ I believe in prophetic dreams.
$ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream. once i get one
$ I am proficient on a musical instrument.
· I worked at McDonald’s restaurant. yuck but it is a JOB..
$ I hate office jobs. -from what i experienced on career day.
· I love sci-fi movies.
$ I think water rules. ~!!!
· I'm going to college out of state. -probably penn. *crossfingers*
· I am adopted.
$ I like sausage. most straight women do.
$ I am a pyro. there's something about lighting a or my fireeee.
· I love the Red Sox.
$ I have thrown up from crying too much.
$ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
$ I love kisses.
$ I fall for the worst people and have been hurt every time. (usually my fault though)
$ I adore bright colors. -ok adore doesnt begin to cut it.
· I love Dear Abby.
· I can’t live without black eyeliner.
· I think school is awesome. -awesome!?
$ I think pigtails serve a purpose. i wear pigtails for a purpose.
$ I don’t know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
· I usually like covers better than originals.
· I don’t like multi-textured ice cream. -what? like no sprinkles for hardcrunchy texture?
· I think John Cusack is adorable.
· I fucking hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
· I watch Food Network way too much.
· I love coaching youth sports.
$ I can pick up things with my toes.
$ I can’t whistle.
· I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes’ slither.
$ I have ridden/owned a horse.
$$$ I still have every journal I’ve ever written in.
· I can’t stick to a diet. SHEER WILLPOWER!!
$ I talk in my sleep. -soimtold
$ I’ve often thought that I was born in the wrong century. ..or decade
$ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. and it comes naturally
$ Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time. yes!easpecially in winter so you can jump into the snow
$ I have jazz in my blood. maybe a teaspoon
· I would not be friends if they weren’t family.
· I wear a toe ring. i have.
· I have a tattoo.
· I love vaginas. -um only mine.
· I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with. work..*tears up*
· I am a caffeine junkie. coffee...ahh and diet pop
· I know who Santos L. Halper is.
· I read trashy romance novels and I am ashamed. -im not ashamed!
· I love wrestling.
$ I sing in the shower.
· I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
· I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
· I have been to over 15 conventions.
$ I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better. (fuck braclettes off of pop bottles)
· I own more than ten video game consoles.
· I learn things far more quickly than my peers.
· I can say HGLGAHLGUAGHLUGAHGLUHG is that german? it sounded almost when i said it.
$ I own more than five different weapons.
· I like my pets better than I do most people
· I cannot sleep without having the tv on.
· I have seen the show Newsradio, or know what it's about
. I can speak/undertand pig latin fluently. no teach me!
. I know everything about sailor moon. no but ive seen enough to want to see more.
$ I am a hopeless romantic.
$ I wish on airplanes as well as falling stars sometimes -i wish on a lot of moving things.
$ I love sour candy. more sour = better.
· I've been on welfare/government aid at some point in my life maybe its about time...
· I hated going to a catholic school. -christian school was ok.
ill update later more has happened that i dont recall.