Guilt and ....
No one writes in here anymore.
I need to work out more. Wish I had the energy.
At this point I don't care where I'm going. I feel like everything I touch gets tarnished. And it is jading me more and more. People say that what I've been doing will take your soul away. Most people seem okay with that. I'm not really.
Decided today that I don't need to earn my way to anything. I think...that in the back of my mind I felt like I had to provide some service to the world. I have this guilt inside of me...that if other people are suffering, I should suffer to? That's not quite it... not really sure how else to say it.
The world is still ugly and sad no matter what I do...and all I'm doing is making myself miserable in the process. Life isn't supposed to work that way.
Life should be easier than that. Where is this guilt I feel coming from? And how do I get rid of it?
I need to work out more. Wish I had the energy.
At this point I don't care where I'm going. I feel like everything I touch gets tarnished. And it is jading me more and more. People say that what I've been doing will take your soul away. Most people seem okay with that. I'm not really.
Decided today that I don't need to earn my way to anything. I think...that in the back of my mind I felt like I had to provide some service to the world. I have this guilt inside of me...that if other people are suffering, I should suffer to? That's not quite it... not really sure how else to say it.
The world is still ugly and sad no matter what I do...and all I'm doing is making myself miserable in the process. Life isn't supposed to work that way.
Life should be easier than that. Where is this guilt I feel coming from? And how do I get rid of it?