learning to fly
So over the weekend I met this amazing guy and now, 3 days later, I honestly, cannot, remember, his, face.
And the stupidest thing? I can remember every single bit of his brother-in-law’s face.
Last night, I received text messages from my bestfriend. She’s read my post about our night out and the boy I met. She wanted to remind me that I am special and no matter how low I think I’ve sunk she’ll always be there for me no matter what. I was in tears reading her messages. I care so much about her but sometimes I feel that I’ve let her down with my personal problems. These days, she’s the one who’s picking up the pieces, gluing me back again eventhough she’s aware that I will break again.
Ugh, I am so stupid.
I called the ex last night. I wanted to know how he was doing, eventhough I didn’t want to hear anything that concerns ‘us’ anymore. I know his situation is no better than mine, but we’re on different paths now. I miss him terribly and despite feeling much resentment about how our twisted fairytale ended, I simply cannot NOT think about him.
I want everything to be okay for him again, eventhough I don’t see myself in the picture anymore.
And the stupidest thing? I can remember every single bit of his brother-in-law’s face.
Last night, I received text messages from my bestfriend. She’s read my post about our night out and the boy I met. She wanted to remind me that I am special and no matter how low I think I’ve sunk she’ll always be there for me no matter what. I was in tears reading her messages. I care so much about her but sometimes I feel that I’ve let her down with my personal problems. These days, she’s the one who’s picking up the pieces, gluing me back again eventhough she’s aware that I will break again.
Ugh, I am so stupid.
I called the ex last night. I wanted to know how he was doing, eventhough I didn’t want to hear anything that concerns ‘us’ anymore. I know his situation is no better than mine, but we’re on different paths now. I miss him terribly and despite feeling much resentment about how our twisted fairytale ended, I simply cannot NOT think about him.
I want everything to be okay for him again, eventhough I don’t see myself in the picture anymore.