I AM JUST SICK OF EVERY FUCKIN THING IN MY LIFE
have u ever tried so hard to make something work but u feel like however much u try, u need to just give up.but the reason why u dont give up after it starts lookin like a good idea to you is because you wanna belive theres a small chance of hope that things will go the way you want to.so you keep going.some of get the results we want when we keep try, and others just are are looking stupid trying to get something they know they will never really get.i people are gonna read this and belike what the fuck is he talkin about.i wanna say what i am talkin about but i am not gonna type it on livejournal.i am not that damn dumb to put something as personal to that in here for people to read.....u will just have to ask me in person(that doesnt mean over instant messenger or teh phone).that means face to face with me bc i have been feeling this for a few days now.i have been bored off my ass sitting in the house staring at these walls and letting this boredem kill me over and over again with intentions of only to resurect me to do the same thing to me.i am beginning to not even wanna really talk to the people in my life that i am supposed to turn to first.my summer used to be fun and adventurous everyday for me, but now its a constant battle with my emotions day by day behind this fuckin computer screen.i am happy one second and later on the smallest thing said to me will make me wanna slit someones throat.i have felt alone for a while now just sitting in here with only a guitar to the only i sound i make.nad these strings making my fingers bleed is something that i have gotten quite used to.i no longer happy anymore and i dont know where the fuck my happiness went.i just wanna feel the way i felt wehn summer started and i was able to make everyone smile by just being me.then that would put a smile on my face.to stop seeing all of my friends relationships fail before my eyes,so i will stop having crazy mindtrips about me and my own.all i know is i hate eveery fucking thing right now and i dont really have ne thing to look forward to.so fuck it all.