butt soft.

[iristhespider]

i'm going to try to try and control my brain more
it has just been getting really out of control

i did a test on the way home from work
because i noticed i was doing it again
freaking out nonstop
so as i walked home i said to myself
i says,
"you are neglecting the moment"
and then i says,
"you neglect the moment
you neglect the moment
you neglect the moment"
over and over

and then i decided to notice the things i neglect in the moment
by saying i neglect them

i says,
"i neglect the moon,
i neglect that rock,
i neglect the dirt,
i neglect those peoples colored glass vases in their window,
i neglect that car not hitting me,
i neglect being able to hear the roarin' parties on this saturday night,
i neglect those bricks,
i neglect the person who built with those brinks
i neglect that bush being cut short so i can see the graffiti on the wall"
and so on.

i think it helped.

and yes, i do talk to myself. but softly.