Speaking of.....
I have not spoken to the wolf in years. But that is okay for now.
The tiger won out in the end. Things have gone great for years, living in the state of humidity and old people.
Things have changed so much since I last spoke with you. But still the same problems seem to be cropping up. I feel sad, and depressed, and like there is a hundred weights on my shoulders. I feel like crying becuase I am loosing the Tiger, I am loosing the one that always has ment the most.
The wolf was never mine to have. I was never the Alpha Female, no matter what I thought, that was not what this world had in store for me.
Now the Tiger will be wandering again, away from where I am, and I will be left alone. This little Tigress will not have anyone to hold, and not have anyone to keep her safe. Its a big scary world when you are all alone, but who can say the end will come, even when you want it to the most.
The other hurts me.....she knows it not, but she hurts me. And she scares me, and I am frightened. Most of this can be read on the Weaver of Dreams, the weaver knows best.
One way or another..,..My path is forking again, and I have options. I don't want to make. Though I don't want to make them I have to. One path is saying strive for him, do everything in my power to keep him close, though he will be so far. Another path tells me to just let him go forever. That we had given this all we could and in the end I could not hold up my part of the deal.
The third path is of myself. Is to make myself who I want to be, and though this path may lead to one or the other down the road a bit, It is a very lonely path. One that I must walk alone and without a hand to hold. This by far is the scariest path that I may take, and I think I am already headed down it.
Keep this in mine, if any still even read this.....
I love you all, I will not forget you.
~Irissacat.
The tiger won out in the end. Things have gone great for years, living in the state of humidity and old people.
Things have changed so much since I last spoke with you. But still the same problems seem to be cropping up. I feel sad, and depressed, and like there is a hundred weights on my shoulders. I feel like crying becuase I am loosing the Tiger, I am loosing the one that always has ment the most.
The wolf was never mine to have. I was never the Alpha Female, no matter what I thought, that was not what this world had in store for me.
Now the Tiger will be wandering again, away from where I am, and I will be left alone. This little Tigress will not have anyone to hold, and not have anyone to keep her safe. Its a big scary world when you are all alone, but who can say the end will come, even when you want it to the most.
The other hurts me.....she knows it not, but she hurts me. And she scares me, and I am frightened. Most of this can be read on the Weaver of Dreams, the weaver knows best.
One way or another..,..My path is forking again, and I have options. I don't want to make. Though I don't want to make them I have to. One path is saying strive for him, do everything in my power to keep him close, though he will be so far. Another path tells me to just let him go forever. That we had given this all we could and in the end I could not hold up my part of the deal.
The third path is of myself. Is to make myself who I want to be, and though this path may lead to one or the other down the road a bit, It is a very lonely path. One that I must walk alone and without a hand to hold. This by far is the scariest path that I may take, and I think I am already headed down it.
Keep this in mine, if any still even read this.....
I love you all, I will not forget you.
~Irissacat.