Fury. Sadness. Joy. Hope.
Fury.
Roiling deep inside. Curdling my insides. Manifesting in self-destructive ways.
Sadness.
Bottomless sadness. An open abyss of sadness that I still have not found the bottom of, and I'm not sure I want to.
Joy.
It springs. Not eternal, but it springs.
Hope.
Brilliant. Happy. Scented with the crisp tang of the coming autumn. Painted with the colors of the turning leaves.
* * * * *
I don't know who else is still here, but I still see some of my favorite folks popping in and out. I've missed you all, and I am looking forward to reconnecting.
I am going to divorce my husband. I have been dragging my feet for years, and I am going to try to serve papers this fall. I simply must free myself. I reached a tipping point not too long ago, and since then I've been on a very different path.
I quit drinking. I started really taking care of myself including yoga, running, acupuncture, nuturing my friendships, eating in a way that makes me feel good all the way around, and reevaluated what I want out of my life. I quit taking care of my husband. I have focused on myself, my job, and the career I want for myself. Nothing has been easy but every last little thing has been worth it.
I feel like I am in motion again, I feel like my journey is moving forwrad after a long stop.
Roiling deep inside. Curdling my insides. Manifesting in self-destructive ways.
Sadness.
Bottomless sadness. An open abyss of sadness that I still have not found the bottom of, and I'm not sure I want to.
Joy.
It springs. Not eternal, but it springs.
Hope.
Brilliant. Happy. Scented with the crisp tang of the coming autumn. Painted with the colors of the turning leaves.
* * * * *
I don't know who else is still here, but I still see some of my favorite folks popping in and out. I've missed you all, and I am looking forward to reconnecting.
I am going to divorce my husband. I have been dragging my feet for years, and I am going to try to serve papers this fall. I simply must free myself. I reached a tipping point not too long ago, and since then I've been on a very different path.
I quit drinking. I started really taking care of myself including yoga, running, acupuncture, nuturing my friendships, eating in a way that makes me feel good all the way around, and reevaluated what I want out of my life. I quit taking care of my husband. I have focused on myself, my job, and the career I want for myself. Nothing has been easy but every last little thing has been worth it.
I feel like I am in motion again, I feel like my journey is moving forwrad after a long stop.