fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
my birthday is in exactly 9 days...i will be 17...big fucking whoopdy doo
ever get into one of those moods where you dont want any human contact with anyone and you just want to be left alone and when people ask you whats wrong, you dont know yourself??? well, i am in that mood.
i guess its alot of things. things that i have never told anyone, things that i should have told but didnt, things that some people know and they only feel pity and sadness for me, which i never want...no one can understand, and yes, there are things that only me, myself, and i know, none that i have ever told anyone due to too much pain
i mean, come on, what the hell? i heard a song and i cant stop listening to it...its driving me crazy...fuck.
i want to type what it is and maybe it will make me feel better but then actually have it down in words so it will always be around...forever isnt exactly gonna help me get over it, now is it?
i miss everett. i do. he always made me laugh with his sillyness. he really is silly, when he's not sore from working all the time and he goes to the gym like everyday, so basically, yeah.
fuck. just damnit all...these are the times when just making it all go away is a good idea, course i wont follow through with it, but entertaining the thought never hurt, right?
i miss my holly. i will always miss my holly. muah!! *sigh* dont know what i would do if i ever lost her. it would be total and udder chaos. thats right, chaos. i wouldnt be able to stand it. because, she, is the only one...well, i aint goin into detail. i wish she was really my sister...maybe i could adopt her..hmmmm.....
time for me to go. i sleepy. i am tired alot lately, i got to bed at like 8. i dont like doing anything anymore. i mean i try to fake and act like i do...the only thing i am still all for is music. i just want to be listening to music, all the time. i can, but of course, BATTERIES DIE...much like other things do...*sigh*...i can whine so much sometimes, but hey, this is livejournal...i can whine although i still feel bad about it...
"government is just another way of saying...better...than...you"
"keep the gun oilded and the temple clean"
"classified my ass, its a fucking secret and you know it"
"i never thought you could leave me, i always thought i was the one, but i understand your sadness...."
"i know that were taking chances, you tell me life was a risk, i just have one last question, will it be my heart or will it be hers"
just some random song quotes for you from the song i was listening to. dont know the name but its good...oh and the first three are from stonesour-"omega"
night kiddies
ever get into one of those moods where you dont want any human contact with anyone and you just want to be left alone and when people ask you whats wrong, you dont know yourself??? well, i am in that mood.
i guess its alot of things. things that i have never told anyone, things that i should have told but didnt, things that some people know and they only feel pity and sadness for me, which i never want...no one can understand, and yes, there are things that only me, myself, and i know, none that i have ever told anyone due to too much pain
i mean, come on, what the hell? i heard a song and i cant stop listening to it...its driving me crazy...fuck.
i want to type what it is and maybe it will make me feel better but then actually have it down in words so it will always be around...forever isnt exactly gonna help me get over it, now is it?
i miss everett. i do. he always made me laugh with his sillyness. he really is silly, when he's not sore from working all the time and he goes to the gym like everyday, so basically, yeah.
fuck. just damnit all...these are the times when just making it all go away is a good idea, course i wont follow through with it, but entertaining the thought never hurt, right?
i miss my holly. i will always miss my holly. muah!! *sigh* dont know what i would do if i ever lost her. it would be total and udder chaos. thats right, chaos. i wouldnt be able to stand it. because, she, is the only one...well, i aint goin into detail. i wish she was really my sister...maybe i could adopt her..hmmmm.....
time for me to go. i sleepy. i am tired alot lately, i got to bed at like 8. i dont like doing anything anymore. i mean i try to fake and act like i do...the only thing i am still all for is music. i just want to be listening to music, all the time. i can, but of course, BATTERIES DIE...much like other things do...*sigh*...i can whine so much sometimes, but hey, this is livejournal...i can whine although i still feel bad about it...
"government is just another way of saying...better...than...you"
"keep the gun oilded and the temple clean"
"classified my ass, its a fucking secret and you know it"
"i never thought you could leave me, i always thought i was the one, but i understand your sadness...."
"i know that were taking chances, you tell me life was a risk, i just have one last question, will it be my heart or will it be hers"
just some random song quotes for you from the song i was listening to. dont know the name but its good...oh and the first three are from stonesour-"omega"
night kiddies