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--I've been crying for the past 20 minutes now over my cat. I had to take her to my parents house and visiting them just made me want to turn back with her.
She's staying until Alicia comes back from vacation in west virginia, but my mom says if I really want her, she can stay with them. I don't know how that will work considering she has bad asthma with her allergies. Even if she did keep her, it still means I'm without her.
I walked into the apartment after I got off work and just started sobbing. She wasn't there purring at me, she wasn't at my feet trying to get my attention, she wasn't looking at me with those beautiful eyes, she wasn't there at the door when I got out of the shower.
I just curled into a ball and cried until all I could do was breath. I know it sounds so childish, but I just feel so lonely without her. Now I'm crying again. She is that extra something that makes this place feel like a home for me. She has that aura and presence she gives off that keeps me fromm feeling alone.
Now, I have Pepper and myself to occupy time when I'm alone. Oh how I could cry for hours right now, but I'm trying to get a grip and move on. At times I feel so independent, while other times I am so dependent it drives me insane. Now's one of those moments.
She's staying until Alicia comes back from vacation in west virginia, but my mom says if I really want her, she can stay with them. I don't know how that will work considering she has bad asthma with her allergies. Even if she did keep her, it still means I'm without her.
I walked into the apartment after I got off work and just started sobbing. She wasn't there purring at me, she wasn't at my feet trying to get my attention, she wasn't looking at me with those beautiful eyes, she wasn't there at the door when I got out of the shower.
I just curled into a ball and cried until all I could do was breath. I know it sounds so childish, but I just feel so lonely without her. Now I'm crying again. She is that extra something that makes this place feel like a home for me. She has that aura and presence she gives off that keeps me fromm feeling alone.
Now, I have Pepper and myself to occupy time when I'm alone. Oh how I could cry for hours right now, but I'm trying to get a grip and move on. At times I feel so independent, while other times I am so dependent it drives me insane. Now's one of those moments.