when it rains it pours
Last night I got a call from Brent. He asked me to sit down first so of course the first thing i say is "is clint ok". He told me clints mother had died. It was so sudden and very unexpected. I was so shocked. I had him try calling clint but it seemed that clint wasnt answering his phone. I couldn't imagine losing my mother. To make things worse he's all the way in Boston for work. Finally I knew I had to try and talk to him even if it meant leaving a message. Just letting him know that I'm here for him and that he isnt alone. I called and got the answering machine so I left a message. It surprised me though becasue an hour later he called back. I didn't think that he would. We talked until two in the morning my time. I had never heard him be so vulnerable before. I wanted so badly to help him, to take his pain to hold him. All I could do was listen and let him know that he wasnt alone. Yet I know that he feels so lonely right now. I can't imagine losing my mother who is one of my best friends. His mother was his best friend as well as the only true parent he had. She was his whole world which is why i was so afriad to meet her. I feel so sad. He's flying home today but I don't know if he'll call me. He probably will want to mourn alone. At least he knows that I'm here if he needs me. Seems like thats the only gift I can offer. I pray god will watch over him and send him comfort. That he will watch over us and guide us. amen