Closure
Friendship. What exactly is it and how is it defined? A person can always look it up in the dictionary. But I think friendship is the family that God did not give you. I have enjoyed these past few days of just talking and hanging out with people. it has been good to catch up. But it also sucks because I am busy with AMONI so I am constantly in rehearsals. But somehow I feel that people that I thought I was close with I am not anymore. It just sucks and I hate how things become distant and awkward. But I guess that if life people change and people grow apart. But how do you just stop yourself from caring? For me it takes a lot for me to open up and give myself to someone and it just sucks that it takes weeks,months, years to break down walls and only a feww moments and the walls go back up. I wish I did not care but I do. I feel like I need closure but I do not know if I ever will get it. But for this moment I guess I am moving on and thinking about me. I think the thing I hate about this business and this culture is the selfishness it creates. So many people only look out for themselves and I do not act that way. I like caring about and for others but in the end I feel like I am the one that gets trampled on and the selfish people triumph. But I guess I am fine with that because I am happy with who I am as a person and if that involves getting trampled on bring it on. So here is to new self discovery and moving on. On another note, I cannot believe that auditions are tomorrow. I have a feeling that this semester is going to go by so fast.