Come back and haunt me...
Come back and haunt me
Coldplay lyrics. Very Wuthering Heights. Understand that book and you are close to discovering some of the thoughts in my head. How I miss my English Lit days. Think I may reread it tonight. Hated having to give my copy of the book back after my alevel exams. It had all my notes and insights written on it. Now I have a blank copy. Less distracting to read maybe.
Pretty uneventful week planned I think. Lots of study to do. The rest of my life to plan. Am being made the University Rep for Christian Aid which is going to keep me busy, but something I know I need to do. Hence the comtemplating the rest of my life. Go after money or go after what is right. Please others or do what I want. Please others leads to the question who to please because each decision is so contradictory. CONFUSION!
Bought my Make Poverty History wristband yesturday. Oxfam shops sell them. Only a quid. Ive quite a few wristbands now. Too comercial or the best way to show solidarity? Im still deciding that one. Makes spotting the socially aware people easier I guess. Im bored with people who dont care. I read that 30,000 kids DIE EVERYDAY just because of poverty. What kind of world do we live in?! Im disgusted. Hopefully my year as Rep will help change that. Make at least 2 more people aware of what is going on outside of the West and I will be happy.
Talked to Danielle last night. We are planning my first American 'date'. Should be fun. My requirements arent difficult to meet!! Tall,guitar playin,romantic,socially aware,gentlemanly,pretty! Im sure I have more. I didnt date last time I was in the states, being 15 and all. The kiss in Theresa's closet..does that count? lol!
House hunting is going well. Saw the house we want. Its gorgeous. The garden is perfect. Everything is perfect. Trouble is we were one of 15 families who went to view it last night so am sure the bidding process will be fun. I just want to be settled. Im restless and altho Ive lived here forever I want to leave. Im ready to leave. To have the bulldozers come and knock down everything I want to forget. The good memories are in my head. The bad ones are hidden within the walls of this house.
*sigh*
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