mumpy fear.
As with my actual journal I find it difficult to go back and update after several significant days have passed. And there were some significant days.
St Paddys involved a lot of alcohol,dancing, and the removal of ties from boys who had high hopes that they would get more than a kiss on the cheek. But alas they did not! Chatted to some guy about his proposal to his gf, am always curious about how boys can come up with romantic ideas of their own. He was a bit odd tho,reminded me of David the stalker ex. Laura and I have been immortalised on somes guys camera from SPAAAAIN. Its how he said it. Lots of curls. We danced and danced and danced and occassionally went back upstairs to hang out with the rest of the group. Fionnualas birthday was great. Lots of us and lots of alcohol. Even Powla came!!! Cider rocks muchly with that girl. Chatted to some chefs from some place Ive forgotton about already but promised to go eat it. They talked about pizza and we decided we wanted a Little Italy. Yum. Totally worth the 20 mins wait. Not so sure if it was worth the walk from Mc Hughes to Malone tho.
Had the boy over for dinner previous to that night. Still havent been told if he liked it or not. Played pool with my chaperone of a little brother making grown up activities impossible..and i mean pg grown up! I won the matches by default. He looked sexy and then he left. Kinda pickles my head no matter what. Habit now more than anything else. Run around the truth. Only say what we think should be said even if that isnt what is needed. Id like him a whole lot more if I knew he liked me. And hed tell me he liked me if I told him. And so it continues! I think! He is all mumpy and hamster like and Im worried Ive caught it. An sti without the fabulous sex! lol! Sent him a card. Wanted to do the cute one then realized the insulting one was more my style!
Dissertation work is taking its toll on me. I want it to be finished. I want to go on holiday. On my own. And think. And finally decide what I want to do with the rest of my life. Do I study here after uni. Do I study abroad. Masters or phd? America or Europe. London or not. Travel. Dont travel. Get car. Dont get car. someone pick for me?! Its hurting my head more than anyone can ever imagine!
15 weeks until oxegen. At least I know that will be great. GOH boys are going which hopefully will make it more interesting. Might see if we can do lifts or something. Really doubt Ill b driving by summer. Craic would be great if we met up.
Fingers crossed I dont get the mumps. ahh. Trust me to kiss mumpy boys right in the middle of an epidemic!!! I didnt know!
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