karma kicks ass
shinjiteru kimi wo = Believe in your feelings
pretty isnt it?!
So I had a dream last night about meeting Hugh at a party for the first time since it all happened. was weird. i was numb in my dream. frozen in fear. i never thought a guy would make me feel so pyshically scared. what a messed up situation.. And believe it or not I woke up this morning feelin really sorry for him. The guy gave up on one dream to wait for another and that fell through.When I found out I was happy that finally he knew what hurt felt like but thats a bad feeling, gloating over someone elses misery. Now I just feel sorry for the fecker. Bad bad finvola. If im not careful I could reach out to him and offer to heal his wounds. Now that would b so silly after his total abandoment of me. Must write a list of 101 reasons for hating him and look at it every time I get pangs of sympathy. Its hard to look at a wounded dog without feelin sorry for it even if 2 minutes before it bit u.
Am unemployed again. Well I walked out of a job that paid really well but I just couldnt do it anymore. So I gotta find me a new one before my bday and before uni starts again. Was hoping to get a 'career' based job but who wants to hire a girl with no experience!? pfft. it will happen. Yesturday showed me that karma exists and that god watches out for all of us. Do good and good will happen to u. Do bad and bad will happen to u. I guess I just never saw the bad happen to others b4 so always thought they got away with it.
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRED!
pretty isnt it?!
So I had a dream last night about meeting Hugh at a party for the first time since it all happened. was weird. i was numb in my dream. frozen in fear. i never thought a guy would make me feel so pyshically scared. what a messed up situation.. And believe it or not I woke up this morning feelin really sorry for him. The guy gave up on one dream to wait for another and that fell through.When I found out I was happy that finally he knew what hurt felt like but thats a bad feeling, gloating over someone elses misery. Now I just feel sorry for the fecker. Bad bad finvola. If im not careful I could reach out to him and offer to heal his wounds. Now that would b so silly after his total abandoment of me. Must write a list of 101 reasons for hating him and look at it every time I get pangs of sympathy. Its hard to look at a wounded dog without feelin sorry for it even if 2 minutes before it bit u.
Am unemployed again. Well I walked out of a job that paid really well but I just couldnt do it anymore. So I gotta find me a new one before my bday and before uni starts again. Was hoping to get a 'career' based job but who wants to hire a girl with no experience!? pfft. it will happen. Yesturday showed me that karma exists and that god watches out for all of us. Do good and good will happen to u. Do bad and bad will happen to u. I guess I just never saw the bad happen to others b4 so always thought they got away with it.
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRED!