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I think I want to become a lesbian, and not become I have some weird fascination with women, they kiss the same as guys so its no biggie, but girls are so much better than guys at being there for u and loving u and not fucking u over in the multitude of ways that only guys seem able to do. I obviously dont really want to be a lesbian. I kinda like guys. They hug great. But Im so fed up with the guys in my life...not my guy friends cuz they rock and i love u muchly..but those guys who have the tag of ex are really bugging me as of late. One in particular who seems to think he can fuck with my emotions and its ok. Well he can. But not any more. I stood up to myself the other day and said no more. Its on or the other not both. And to be honest I only want to b friends with him now. Time apart opened my eyes and made me realize I need someone rich,smart,sexy,geetar playing,tall,passionate,semi-gay(lol) and etc etc. I just think its about time I had a nice guy.
Now with that rant over its time to continue the house saga. They rang yesturday and said we had to move by next thursday or else sale was off. bit rash. So the solicitor is hopefully sorting that today or something. Its all so complicated. There are several outcomes. A: we move next thursday in which case i should get offline and go pack! B: we loose the house and have to start the fucking search all over again! C: a possibility i havent thought of.
Ive got a brand new combin harvester is on the radio....WHY??!!!
god its too early.
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