Diet

[irishsbuffy]

Okay- since this if the first Monday of the year - I have started my new diet.  I am also starting a new therapist - one who specializes in eating disorders, Yea me, I know I have a problem with food and I am addressing it.  I think part of it is depression and how I deal with  it.  I know there is this hole in my life somehow and I am filling it with food.  My fear is going to far one way or another.  I either dont eat enough and thus my body has the starvation mode and then there is I eat too much.  I eat too much crap.  I eat a plate of fudge over a healthy meal.  Granted Fudge is really good but I know better.

I also feel like I am putting on the happy face and being so good at giving others advice and hitting the problem on the head for others but I cant follow my own advice.

I am happy just feel happy in a stoney kind of hippy way.....

I dont know what to say................I hope this doesnt make sense to anyone because it doesnt me.