Merry Fucking Christmas
Well, it's the day before Christmas and here I sit all alone. I'm beginning to feel like an abandon toy. You know the one that gets tossed into the closet for months at a time and then when the kid is feeling good it drags me out to play with for a few minutes. I spend so much time alone anymore that when someone does want to spend time with me I find it nearly unbearable and Gods do I hate those 5 minute visits, "just wanted to see how you were, lonely? so sorry, I gotta run" Why waste your time and mine? Whyget my hopes up that I might be able to spend some time with someone I care about then leave me hanging? What's the fucking point? I always knew I would end up alone, but I thought it would be later inmy life.........well, no time like the present to get started, eh? Now if it would just pour rainfor the next six months there would be something to suit my current mood. I think I'll just go back to bed and cry somemore..........not like anyone notices or cares. Fuck and I can't even drink anymore, that bites ass.