my post whoreness of last week has left me
i just don't have anything clever to write...so i feel like i shouldn't be writing. not that anything i ever write is really clever...in real life. it just entertains me. anyway...
yesterday was a whole lot of prism. i woke up at 11:30 by a phone call from alissa panickingly asking me if i would go with her to the afternoon show...well...duh, sure. so then she was all relieved cuz her sisters was supposed to go with her but then bailed last minute. so there was one prism. and then afterwards i was a little upset cuz i didn't really have anything to do...so i was just gonna go home, but then willie was driving past and yelled my name and then pulled over quickly, parked his car illegally and got out to give me a hug. i felt loved...but then there was awkward conversation and he started talking to some other kid and i saw carl, so i opted to say goodbye to willie and go talk to carl. which is exactly what i did. but then i got malled by jeff (a kid on pa), and nearly killed by flying tennis balls. it was fun though. they were being retarded pa crew and trying to play baseball...well...they were trying to hit tennis balls with a broomstick, while standing on top of bob's car. it was quite entertaining. and then i hugged carl while he was trying to grill. but then 10 seconds later i got attacked by him cuz apparently, my hug from behind wasn't good enough and he needed to give me a better hug. then i found out about allie's broken tire and lack of car to get to me before the concert, so i decided that being entertained by pa wasn't such a bad alternative. there was good music, decent food that i really didn't eat, and good company (?!?!). for the most part at least. and then carl and i were being cute. i was wearing a really cute tank top, but then i was sitting in the shade on the tailgate of carl's truck and it was windy, so i was cold. so i leaned into carl and then he put his arm around me to keep me warm, but his hand was kinda close to my crotch. totally on accident. but then bob saw and freaked out. and apparently bob didn't want carl to put his arm around me or something, because he purposefully went to his car to get me a blanket so carl didn't have to keep me warm. bob is a dork. but yeah. there were other slighly cute moments that i won't mention. no, carl and i are not going out. and no we will not be going out in the future either. we are friends. and thats how we like it. then there was the 2nd concert with allie. i felt bad cuz i kept running away at first cuz i kept seeing people i had to say hi to. and then there was a lot of john awkwardness and i questioned crying, but refrained. eventually i bit my tongue and went over to give him a hug. and then sat within 5 feet of him for the rest of the concert. which was really really weird. cuz...i don't really have feelings for him. i definitely don't want to go out with him, but when i see him, i think of last year and how cute we could have been before he turned into and asshole, and how much he liked me until for some reason he changed his mind. idk. things were shitty at the end, but everything leading up to the downfall seemed really good. and the good is what i see when i look at him. and it makes me sad, cuz i don't have anyone who is that crazy about me anymore. and sometimes i doubt i ever will.
whoa. major sidetrack. i enjoyed sitting next to allie. i think that i enjoyed the show more than she did, but i liked being able to turn and comment to her or get comments from her, and her reaction to some stuff definitely made me crack up. and the whole 'boogityboogityboogity' thing. yeah..i almost cried i was laughing so hard.
after the show there were plenty of short conversations with people and awkward silences where, after the first hi, how are you, you didnt' know what to say anymore. then i headed to coke with jill wilken and carl. carl showed up way late and i oddly, felt kinda weird being alone with jill. i don't remember the last time i hung out with her. we really dont' talk much anymore at all..tis quite sad. but yeah. then i drove jill back to wisco to get her car and carl and i decide to hang out, but carl forgot to lock a door inside wisco so we had to go back in. but we had to sneak around cuz the big chief sound guy was working in the gym, and technically..we weren't supposed to be inside the building. so there was sneaking around..in the dark. i hate the dark. i made carl hold my hand. and then we went and sat in the fan room and just talked for 45 minutes. and then we left. and i talked to andy...and he was in a really weird mood. and then he started pressing buttons, and i kept yelling at him to stop (while i was already half asleep) and then he hung up. and i didn't care cuz i fell asleep...probably a minute after that. i think that he was just starting to fall asleep on the phone and thats how he was hitting the buttons. *sigh* oh well.
now i'm waiting for alissa to get out of an interview so i can possibly catch up with her or see what she is doing tonight. we're having lasagna for dinner that the beaumont's made for us. we borrowed them something that they kept for a month, so they returned it, plus lasagna. which is good, because i love lasagna. in the meantime, i should probably shower.
yesterday was a whole lot of prism. i woke up at 11:30 by a phone call from alissa panickingly asking me if i would go with her to the afternoon show...well...duh, sure. so then she was all relieved cuz her sisters was supposed to go with her but then bailed last minute. so there was one prism. and then afterwards i was a little upset cuz i didn't really have anything to do...so i was just gonna go home, but then willie was driving past and yelled my name and then pulled over quickly, parked his car illegally and got out to give me a hug. i felt loved...but then there was awkward conversation and he started talking to some other kid and i saw carl, so i opted to say goodbye to willie and go talk to carl. which is exactly what i did. but then i got malled by jeff (a kid on pa), and nearly killed by flying tennis balls. it was fun though. they were being retarded pa crew and trying to play baseball...well...they were trying to hit tennis balls with a broomstick, while standing on top of bob's car. it was quite entertaining. and then i hugged carl while he was trying to grill. but then 10 seconds later i got attacked by him cuz apparently, my hug from behind wasn't good enough and he needed to give me a better hug. then i found out about allie's broken tire and lack of car to get to me before the concert, so i decided that being entertained by pa wasn't such a bad alternative. there was good music, decent food that i really didn't eat, and good company (?!?!). for the most part at least. and then carl and i were being cute. i was wearing a really cute tank top, but then i was sitting in the shade on the tailgate of carl's truck and it was windy, so i was cold. so i leaned into carl and then he put his arm around me to keep me warm, but his hand was kinda close to my crotch. totally on accident. but then bob saw and freaked out. and apparently bob didn't want carl to put his arm around me or something, because he purposefully went to his car to get me a blanket so carl didn't have to keep me warm. bob is a dork. but yeah. there were other slighly cute moments that i won't mention. no, carl and i are not going out. and no we will not be going out in the future either. we are friends. and thats how we like it. then there was the 2nd concert with allie. i felt bad cuz i kept running away at first cuz i kept seeing people i had to say hi to. and then there was a lot of john awkwardness and i questioned crying, but refrained. eventually i bit my tongue and went over to give him a hug. and then sat within 5 feet of him for the rest of the concert. which was really really weird. cuz...i don't really have feelings for him. i definitely don't want to go out with him, but when i see him, i think of last year and how cute we could have been before he turned into and asshole, and how much he liked me until for some reason he changed his mind. idk. things were shitty at the end, but everything leading up to the downfall seemed really good. and the good is what i see when i look at him. and it makes me sad, cuz i don't have anyone who is that crazy about me anymore. and sometimes i doubt i ever will.
whoa. major sidetrack. i enjoyed sitting next to allie. i think that i enjoyed the show more than she did, but i liked being able to turn and comment to her or get comments from her, and her reaction to some stuff definitely made me crack up. and the whole 'boogityboogityboogity' thing. yeah..i almost cried i was laughing so hard.
after the show there were plenty of short conversations with people and awkward silences where, after the first hi, how are you, you didnt' know what to say anymore. then i headed to coke with jill wilken and carl. carl showed up way late and i oddly, felt kinda weird being alone with jill. i don't remember the last time i hung out with her. we really dont' talk much anymore at all..tis quite sad. but yeah. then i drove jill back to wisco to get her car and carl and i decide to hang out, but carl forgot to lock a door inside wisco so we had to go back in. but we had to sneak around cuz the big chief sound guy was working in the gym, and technically..we weren't supposed to be inside the building. so there was sneaking around..in the dark. i hate the dark. i made carl hold my hand. and then we went and sat in the fan room and just talked for 45 minutes. and then we left. and i talked to andy...and he was in a really weird mood. and then he started pressing buttons, and i kept yelling at him to stop (while i was already half asleep) and then he hung up. and i didn't care cuz i fell asleep...probably a minute after that. i think that he was just starting to fall asleep on the phone and thats how he was hitting the buttons. *sigh* oh well.
now i'm waiting for alissa to get out of an interview so i can possibly catch up with her or see what she is doing tonight. we're having lasagna for dinner that the beaumont's made for us. we borrowed them something that they kept for a month, so they returned it, plus lasagna. which is good, because i love lasagna. in the meantime, i should probably shower.