holy moses.
I haven't written in this since february.
it's july. haha.
i want to break my arm before the summer ends
so somebody push me down at the next party or whatever.
it obviously has to be done in a drunken stooper.
tomorrow is the annual summer party.
its going to be weird this year w/o Jimmy there.
it's still weird to not be with him.
sometimes i cry.
nana b is dying.
she's on her second round of kemo
and it's really taking a tole on her this time.
she is always sick now. It's scary.
she has been in and out of the hospital and sunbridge since february.
mom says she won't make it to the end of the year.
i just want them to stop doing the kemo treatments
and start the hospis.
i dont want her to suffer.
i have a notebook filled with stuff i want to say to you but never could.
you'll probably never even see it.
things are not very good.
but i am happy...
weird.
it's july. haha.
i want to break my arm before the summer ends
so somebody push me down at the next party or whatever.
it obviously has to be done in a drunken stooper.
tomorrow is the annual summer party.
its going to be weird this year w/o Jimmy there.
it's still weird to not be with him.
sometimes i cry.
nana b is dying.
she's on her second round of kemo
and it's really taking a tole on her this time.
she is always sick now. It's scary.
she has been in and out of the hospital and sunbridge since february.
mom says she won't make it to the end of the year.
i just want them to stop doing the kemo treatments
and start the hospis.
i dont want her to suffer.
i have a notebook filled with stuff i want to say to you but never could.
you'll probably never even see it.
things are not very good.
but i am happy...
weird.