sometimes i just dont get it...
ahhh..i just dont understand what im going through lately! i feel like i have perminant pms and its unexplainable. i've been a total bitch to chris lately and i feel really bad but i cant help it. im just in a really bad mood. i find myself constantly crying everyday and it bothers me so much but i cant stop. i cry for no reason sometimes and other times i cry about what im going through i mean people think im such a sweet girl and have the perfect life but i dont and im no where near perfect. i wish people could walk a mile in my shoes and then tell me my life is perfect..its deffinetly not. i have had such a hard life that its not even funny..i feel like when my family looks at me they look at me in pitty or sometimes dissapointment bacause im not living my life the way they wanted me to live it...i live my life the way i want to and i live it day by day and if people dont like it i can care less im still gonna do what i want and not what others want me to do...my co- workers have been getting on my nerves lately they are telling me i share chris and that we wont last its just a phase im going through but its not just a phase im in love and im going to marry chris. he has made me feel like i belong in the world and i love him for it ...