To Anonymous
Alright, Jess did this on here so I thought it was a great idea so in turn I am gonna steal it and do it here and on myspace as well to cover all the bases. The deal is simple, you leave little messages to people you care about, however you DO NOT say who exactly that particular message is for for sake of keeping things anonymous. Its also kinda fun figuring out which one is for you. lol
1. We met in under what can be considered the most drama filled and weirdest ways two people can meet one another. After all that drama subsided you were there to comfort me through what I can only describe as the most difficult period of my life so far. You kept me from going off the deep end and you put up with all my bitching and complaining and for that i will forever be in your debt. Your uniqueness and quirky ways of doing things have never and will never cease to amaze me. You have such a big heart although you try your damnedest to hide it from public view. You can be so unsure of yourself at times despite all of us who know and tell you that you can succeed. If i could only show to you how great you really are. just promise me that no matter what you will not stop being the loveable oddball lil sis that you have become to me.
2. dude when i first met you i thought you were a prick.lol but that was because you were such a quiet guy that i misinterpreted it as being an ass. its kinda weird how we met and all the drama that you had to deal with because of my situation at the time and even after that you were still there being you. You have by far the weirdest sense of humor of anyone i have ever met. you can be so quiet and reserved then at times you can be the most vocal and irate(but in a good way). i know i poke fun at you as far as questioning your sexual orientation even though i know for a fact that you are the most hetero guy i have ever met. i am glad i met you dude and i am glad that were are housemates. dont stop being weird, that is what makes everyone like you so much :)
3. i made a stupid mistake 2 years ago with you and someone else. i dropped off the face of the earth to you both when you two were the only real friends i had. but karma really kicked my ass for it. when we all got back into touch with each other i honestly didnt think that either of you would forgive me for it nor should you have. this past year for you has been a fucked up one for you. really shitty things have happened left and right but you have pushed through them and you have lived through them and in the end you have become so much stronger because of them. I know that things look like shit right now for you but i know deep down in my soul that things will get better for you, all you need to do is believe it yourself. Love ya punk ass
4.you have been way to kind to me since i moved in lol. you have a drive and determination that not only i dream of having but that over half of the worlds population dreams of having to. i have never met someone like you. you are like the energizer bunny. seriously who paints a bathroom at 3 in the morning lol??? building that workbench tho brought back some good memories for me and now i am probably gonna end up taking up that old hobby again once we are all in the new place. you tend to like to pick up strays i have noticed, like me and burdick, but thats not a bad thing lol. like i already told you tho, for the first time in a long time i finally feel like i have a home, thanks to your kindness and your generosity. i am so glad that i met you!
5. out of all the people in this world you are probably the one that knows me the best. my entire life you were there fighting for me and jeremy. for our education, for our health, hell for everything. as i got older and started to develop a sense of identity we most certainly had our fights and exchange of words, but through it all you were still there to support me. i know in the past 3 years or so ( i kinda lost track) things most certainly have changed. but knowing that no matter what fuck ups i make or what ever else happens you will still be there behind me cheering me on. i worry about you a lot, your health situation scares the living shit out of me. i want you around to tell my kids how much of a pain in the ass it was to raise me lol. keep fighting it, if not for your self then at least for me and jeremy. i love ya
6.growing up we didnt have much of a relationship really. we have both agreed that we missed out on a lot of things that we really cant get back. but in my opinion we have made up for it i think. i have always looked up to you as the man i was suppose to either be just like or even be better than. as time goes by i dont think i could ever do either but i will do whatever i can to try. your supportive words of wisdom and understanding ways have meant more to me than i can ever even attempt to put into words. i was named after you and that name has a deep meaning to it to me. i have always said that i was gonna name my first born son after me and people ask me why. i simply tell them two things: one i want to see how long i can keep our name going and two our name is a strong one, one that YOU made strong, so you can imagine why i am trying to be as strong a man as you are. i only hope my kids can think of me in the same way.
7. just cuz you are last here doesnt mean that you are in any way the least. when you came into my life i was extremely jealous of you. i thought you were a pain in the ass and wanted everything that was mine. i dont think that way anymore. as a matter of fact i feel like you are the closest thing i have to a kid of my own. i have always felt very paternal with you and that feeling will NEVER go away no matter how far i move away. since we were kids, even tho you were younger than me, you have taught me so much about what "normal" means and let me tell you that word really has no meaning. you see things in a way that others, myself included, cant even imagine. despite the problems you face everyday you face them with your head held high and your eyes wide open. despite what the world and society considers you, you still push those stereotypes aside and do what ever it is you set your mind to. i am so very proud of you, you have beaten every expectation i or anyone ever held for you. whenever i talk about you to other people i have to fight to keep tears out of my eyes. i am tearing up typing this message for you as a matter of fact you little shit. see what you do to me?? lol. if someone was to come up to me saying that they found a cure for you all i had to say was to give it you, i think i would have to say no. you are great just the way are. love ya kid.
1. We met in under what can be considered the most drama filled and weirdest ways two people can meet one another. After all that drama subsided you were there to comfort me through what I can only describe as the most difficult period of my life so far. You kept me from going off the deep end and you put up with all my bitching and complaining and for that i will forever be in your debt. Your uniqueness and quirky ways of doing things have never and will never cease to amaze me. You have such a big heart although you try your damnedest to hide it from public view. You can be so unsure of yourself at times despite all of us who know and tell you that you can succeed. If i could only show to you how great you really are. just promise me that no matter what you will not stop being the loveable oddball lil sis that you have become to me.
2. dude when i first met you i thought you were a prick.lol but that was because you were such a quiet guy that i misinterpreted it as being an ass. its kinda weird how we met and all the drama that you had to deal with because of my situation at the time and even after that you were still there being you. You have by far the weirdest sense of humor of anyone i have ever met. you can be so quiet and reserved then at times you can be the most vocal and irate(but in a good way). i know i poke fun at you as far as questioning your sexual orientation even though i know for a fact that you are the most hetero guy i have ever met. i am glad i met you dude and i am glad that were are housemates. dont stop being weird, that is what makes everyone like you so much :)
3. i made a stupid mistake 2 years ago with you and someone else. i dropped off the face of the earth to you both when you two were the only real friends i had. but karma really kicked my ass for it. when we all got back into touch with each other i honestly didnt think that either of you would forgive me for it nor should you have. this past year for you has been a fucked up one for you. really shitty things have happened left and right but you have pushed through them and you have lived through them and in the end you have become so much stronger because of them. I know that things look like shit right now for you but i know deep down in my soul that things will get better for you, all you need to do is believe it yourself. Love ya punk ass
4.you have been way to kind to me since i moved in lol. you have a drive and determination that not only i dream of having but that over half of the worlds population dreams of having to. i have never met someone like you. you are like the energizer bunny. seriously who paints a bathroom at 3 in the morning lol??? building that workbench tho brought back some good memories for me and now i am probably gonna end up taking up that old hobby again once we are all in the new place. you tend to like to pick up strays i have noticed, like me and burdick, but thats not a bad thing lol. like i already told you tho, for the first time in a long time i finally feel like i have a home, thanks to your kindness and your generosity. i am so glad that i met you!
5. out of all the people in this world you are probably the one that knows me the best. my entire life you were there fighting for me and jeremy. for our education, for our health, hell for everything. as i got older and started to develop a sense of identity we most certainly had our fights and exchange of words, but through it all you were still there to support me. i know in the past 3 years or so ( i kinda lost track) things most certainly have changed. but knowing that no matter what fuck ups i make or what ever else happens you will still be there behind me cheering me on. i worry about you a lot, your health situation scares the living shit out of me. i want you around to tell my kids how much of a pain in the ass it was to raise me lol. keep fighting it, if not for your self then at least for me and jeremy. i love ya
6.growing up we didnt have much of a relationship really. we have both agreed that we missed out on a lot of things that we really cant get back. but in my opinion we have made up for it i think. i have always looked up to you as the man i was suppose to either be just like or even be better than. as time goes by i dont think i could ever do either but i will do whatever i can to try. your supportive words of wisdom and understanding ways have meant more to me than i can ever even attempt to put into words. i was named after you and that name has a deep meaning to it to me. i have always said that i was gonna name my first born son after me and people ask me why. i simply tell them two things: one i want to see how long i can keep our name going and two our name is a strong one, one that YOU made strong, so you can imagine why i am trying to be as strong a man as you are. i only hope my kids can think of me in the same way.
7. just cuz you are last here doesnt mean that you are in any way the least. when you came into my life i was extremely jealous of you. i thought you were a pain in the ass and wanted everything that was mine. i dont think that way anymore. as a matter of fact i feel like you are the closest thing i have to a kid of my own. i have always felt very paternal with you and that feeling will NEVER go away no matter how far i move away. since we were kids, even tho you were younger than me, you have taught me so much about what "normal" means and let me tell you that word really has no meaning. you see things in a way that others, myself included, cant even imagine. despite the problems you face everyday you face them with your head held high and your eyes wide open. despite what the world and society considers you, you still push those stereotypes aside and do what ever it is you set your mind to. i am so very proud of you, you have beaten every expectation i or anyone ever held for you. whenever i talk about you to other people i have to fight to keep tears out of my eyes. i am tearing up typing this message for you as a matter of fact you little shit. see what you do to me?? lol. if someone was to come up to me saying that they found a cure for you all i had to say was to give it you, i think i would have to say no. you are great just the way are. love ya kid.