*sigh*
It was a long nite at work... but we had 4 breaks. That made me happy. 10:30= 15min; 12:30= half hour; 2:30= half hour; 4:30= 15min. Yay! I had to strip all the kids rales by myself... that was very boring. Then I had to put away all the infants & toddler PJs. That took forever cuz there was no room and i had to make room... it was a pain in the ass basically. Our second half hour break was fun though. Debbi was playing songs on her phone and we had to guess what they were. I won the game! Ray was close... but nope! I won... go me.
I was talking to Becka towards the end of the nite while we were doing men's backstock. We were talking about relationships and shizzle. I realized some crap I wish I never had thought about. =( It sucks... Dammit. Its really annoying me cuz I know none of it will happen... but oh well. I realized that I miss Geoff... and I dunno why. I guess its cuz we, at least I think, had a good relationship until people decided to be assholes and start up the rumor mill. Honestly, I think that if those rumors had never been spread I'd still be with him. I really did care about him alot... and I guess I still do. :-/ I know that he & I will never get back together... so I'm keeping my eyes open for a potential boyfriend.
I think my standards might be a little be too high though. Well... I have always "settled" for guys... I guess I "spoil" my boyfriends. I've been told that alot. Most of them I give money to, get them new clothes, help them along and such... and then we break up and they're alot better off than what they were before we started dating. It kinda sucks. :-/ This time around I wanna be the spoiled one... lol. I know that won't happen cuz I like spoiling my boyfriends. I guess its my way of showing them that I care about them. Anyways... yah...
I have a few guys in mind.. but I don't think they meet the standards of the guys I chill with... And I don't think Nikki gets along with some of them. =( I dunno... I want someone who everyone can get along with so I don't hafta chose who I wanna hang out with on my night off from work, ya know? Like... I wanna chill with my friends and my boyfriend at the same time on some nights... and then just have a night with my boyfriend. Not chose between the friends and the boyfriend... that makes life so difficult.
I think that does it for my rant on my lack of boyfriend issue.... good nite (for me anyways!)
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