how is it possible?
How is it that i can be this sad, but still have times like tonight where i cant stop laughing. The sad feeling never truly leaves, but at moments its like my brain is able to set it aside for a moment to let some good times through. I wish it could do that all the time. Push the sadness aside and let me be happy. oh dear....like a good friend tells me though, time will heal the pain.
On a little lighter note, i was hypnotized tonight at Triton at the homecoming thing that they do every year. It felt so good. I was so relaxed and didnt care what the heck was going on. Once you're in that state of mind, you just dont want to get out of it. It's as though you're staring at something and someone is calling your name but you cant look away. Do you know what I'm talkin about? It's so hard to explain.
oh and in other good news, i went to the cheering competition the other night and the Triton squad did soooo good....i love kimmy!! =D she did great!
Anyway, im excited that thanksgiving is coming up....it means good food, seeing family, and seeing aaron (which im excited about considering its been a while). I dont think hes all that excited about seeing me, but too bad he has to! lol im just kidding. To tell you the truth, im kind of nervous about seeing him. Not really sure why either. I cant wait to sit and talk with him about everything...hes most defiantly my favorite person to talk to only because i feel like i can learn so much from everything he says. He's awesome.
My gosh im so tired!!! Im going to bed. Goodnight everyone.
On a little lighter note, i was hypnotized tonight at Triton at the homecoming thing that they do every year. It felt so good. I was so relaxed and didnt care what the heck was going on. Once you're in that state of mind, you just dont want to get out of it. It's as though you're staring at something and someone is calling your name but you cant look away. Do you know what I'm talkin about? It's so hard to explain.
oh and in other good news, i went to the cheering competition the other night and the Triton squad did soooo good....i love kimmy!! =D she did great!
Anyway, im excited that thanksgiving is coming up....it means good food, seeing family, and seeing aaron (which im excited about considering its been a while). I dont think hes all that excited about seeing me, but too bad he has to! lol im just kidding. To tell you the truth, im kind of nervous about seeing him. Not really sure why either. I cant wait to sit and talk with him about everything...hes most defiantly my favorite person to talk to only because i feel like i can learn so much from everything he says. He's awesome.
My gosh im so tired!!! Im going to bed. Goodnight everyone.