hearts are broken by words unspoken
-sigh- for most of today i was overwhelmed with love for my wonderful boyfriend, so the first thing i did upon arriving home from school was leave him a sweet comment on myspace. he sent me one back and i left him another. he ditched me to go hang out with his friend cameron, and didn't even say bye. he's also in touch with this girl in california who is crazy for him and she wants him to visit and he told her he's going to try as hard as he can to get out there. ok, he totally attacks me if i even ask a guy for help with school work, and even though it's always bothered me, i've never really said anything to him about how much it bothers me that he talks to so many girls. this california girl has now made me completely fucking paranoid and i'm going to have a serious talk with shadoe about her. i REALLY don't want him to go visit her, i just know something horrid will happen. i'm so fucking scared i'll lose him, and that stupid bitch is just making it a million times worse. i'm going insane.