|| ode to a wifey ||
There's been a lot of shit going on in my life lately. And a lot of it I really don't want to get into. I haven't updated this journal because I'm tired of always filling this little white box with whining and moaning. Negativity... it's usually always negative. So I just stopped updating. Not that I haven't had some good things happen since the last time I wrote anything down. It's just been a whirl wind... a constant whirlwind.
But through it all there's always been one constant, my soul mate and best friend. So I'm going to fill this little box with words of positive energy towards a person that truly deserves good things in her life.
Never in my life have I met anyone one so unselfish, so loyal and willing to go that extra mile. I met Carrie in highschool and I still remember sitting in the hallways with my friends and visiting. She was always the strong, quiet type. She'd put in her two cents in a very well planned, very thought out manner. She always did have most excellent fucking timing. We actually weren't extremely close in highschool, we were friends... but I think after we graduated and started university is when we really started to grow closer together. I'm not sure what happened to her when she started university... but it was like watching a rose unfold under the first rays of the sun. Suddenly she became more open, more... opinionated? No I don't think that's the right word. But she did open herself up more... and I don't think I had anything to do with that. Or at least, I don't think I did.
There are so many memories that I have, so many treasures that I keep in my mind and remember when I'm feeling blue. Like... the constant support I got from her. The way she'd sit on my bed and help me with my lines as I'd pace back and forth. Going for coffee and taking handfuls of pennies to make 'penny art' for a tip. (don't ask) Having a mental breakdown episode in a movie theater while I'm sitting there too fucking stoned to know what the hell is going on. Camping... and watching a bald eagle fly by while we just reconnected. There isn't anyone in the world that I can just... be myself with. I have so many mask, so many that I wear from day to day but as soon as I'm with her, I can take them off and just be Shelley.
I've always been a strong willed person and there are times when I'm unsure what they deals with my crap. She's been through thick and thin with me. She came and looked after me when I wrecked my knee. We went to David Bowie together and realized a life dream (for me anyways, I can't really speak for her). She gives me that kick in the ass when I need it or a shoulder to cry on. This last year has been hard on me and the one person I could count on never turned her back on me... even when there are times she should have.
I believe that soul mates are not always man/woman. I believe that best friends can be soul mates too. She knows what I'm thinking before I say it, which at times freaks me out. ha ha. If everything came crashing down around me tomorrow... I'd still be ever so thankful that she decided to befriend a spaz like me. And I know sometimes I take the friendship for granted... I don't think she really knows just how important she is to me. Maybe this will show her just how grateful I am. If she ever needed me, I'd be there without question because she's always been there for me. I'd like to be that pillar that she can lean on... instead of always leaning on her.
So... here's my ode to a beautiful person both inside and out. And may we have many more good memories that I can store away to relive on rainy days. If only more people could be as lucky as me.
I love you Carrie Greene Stone.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains.
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas.
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders.
You raise me up, to more than I can be.
But through it all there's always been one constant, my soul mate and best friend. So I'm going to fill this little box with words of positive energy towards a person that truly deserves good things in her life.
Never in my life have I met anyone one so unselfish, so loyal and willing to go that extra mile. I met Carrie in highschool and I still remember sitting in the hallways with my friends and visiting. She was always the strong, quiet type. She'd put in her two cents in a very well planned, very thought out manner. She always did have most excellent fucking timing. We actually weren't extremely close in highschool, we were friends... but I think after we graduated and started university is when we really started to grow closer together. I'm not sure what happened to her when she started university... but it was like watching a rose unfold under the first rays of the sun. Suddenly she became more open, more... opinionated? No I don't think that's the right word. But she did open herself up more... and I don't think I had anything to do with that. Or at least, I don't think I did.
There are so many memories that I have, so many treasures that I keep in my mind and remember when I'm feeling blue. Like... the constant support I got from her. The way she'd sit on my bed and help me with my lines as I'd pace back and forth. Going for coffee and taking handfuls of pennies to make 'penny art' for a tip. (don't ask) Having a mental breakdown episode in a movie theater while I'm sitting there too fucking stoned to know what the hell is going on. Camping... and watching a bald eagle fly by while we just reconnected. There isn't anyone in the world that I can just... be myself with. I have so many mask, so many that I wear from day to day but as soon as I'm with her, I can take them off and just be Shelley.
I've always been a strong willed person and there are times when I'm unsure what they deals with my crap. She's been through thick and thin with me. She came and looked after me when I wrecked my knee. We went to David Bowie together and realized a life dream (for me anyways, I can't really speak for her). She gives me that kick in the ass when I need it or a shoulder to cry on. This last year has been hard on me and the one person I could count on never turned her back on me... even when there are times she should have.
I believe that soul mates are not always man/woman. I believe that best friends can be soul mates too. She knows what I'm thinking before I say it, which at times freaks me out. ha ha. If everything came crashing down around me tomorrow... I'd still be ever so thankful that she decided to befriend a spaz like me. And I know sometimes I take the friendship for granted... I don't think she really knows just how important she is to me. Maybe this will show her just how grateful I am. If she ever needed me, I'd be there without question because she's always been there for me. I'd like to be that pillar that she can lean on... instead of always leaning on her.
So... here's my ode to a beautiful person both inside and out. And may we have many more good memories that I can store away to relive on rainy days. If only more people could be as lucky as me.
I love you Carrie Greene Stone.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains.
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas.
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders.
You raise me up, to more than I can be.